There is something wrong with me. I have this set of things I eat and when I deviate from foods I’ve deemed as “okay” it completely ruins the rest of my day. I don’t know how to allow myself to eat healthy with a treat or a meal that is not healthy without completely throwing the whole day in the trash. This is a bad habit that comes from my all or nothing approach to food. I am either super healthy or say F-it and eat whatever even when I’m not hungry. Like I said before I need to start keeping track of my hunger levels before and after I eat. On a scale of 1 to 5, 1 being starving and 5 being stuffed.
Lunch was a big salad with a lot of veggies topped with a chickpea cutlet. I also had half a piece of bread that was leftover from another snack. I ran out of dressing so I put on extra ketchup.
I also had a couple of crackers with PB.
Then, the bread from the company breakfast was calling me. I had seen it yesterday and it looked so good. I am a major carb lover and I really wanted a piece of this bread. But, I wasn’t even hungry – I just ate lunch literally 2 minutes before. I was on a mission to have a piece of it and nothing could stop me because I was eating for reasons other than hunger. I ate the whole piece – which was 190 calories and the top of another 2 muffins. – So, it basically turned into a binge. Now I feel like shit. Sorry for the rant. That was lame. I am going to move on from here and not trash my whole day.