F it

Yesterday was a super shitty  bad day and I just feel like saying , F@#% it all! 

I just could not stop eating all day, which means I felt like crap all day. I wasn’t going to post my daily, but I am trying to hold myself accountable and also be “real” about my journey so I thought I should post it. If nothing else I am honest here. I write about my setbacks and challenges. Hiding that stuff will only hurt me as I am trying to learn from my mistakes. I am going to have bad days, I am going to have days where I eat crap that I shouldn’t and I will still post about them. I am not perfect and I’m not trying to be perfect. I am just a chubby girl who wants to lose some weight and run around. So, if you want a happy little perfect blog you’ve come to the wrong place.

Anyways, I started the day with my usual oats, but added pumpkin to them. I actually found that the pumpkin made them less sweet. I guess since I added an extra ingredient that is not sweet it needed more sugar or something. After I was done I kept picking at the PB straight from the jar and it was all downhill from there…foodies-586I had some grapes mid morning because I love them.foodies-587Then, I felt the need to snack on Kashi Trail Mix because it was there and I am stressed. Hmmm, in hindsight that doesn’t really seem like a good reason to eat multiple servings of something. foodies-588Lunch was an eggwhite omlete stuff with Calabacitas and topped with cheese. I also had a veggie sausage and an alternative bagel with SB on one half and pumpkin butter on the other. foodies-594I made Calabacitas last night to go with dinner and ended up taking a few bites and saving it. I made it too spicy and decided I had to mix it in with something else. Calabacitas means “little squash” in Spanish. I don’t have a recipe I follow exactly, but I can post how I make it if anyone is interested.  It is basically zucchini cooked in a tomato sauce.foodies-593Right after that I had a VitaTop because I just couldn’t stop plus a bunch of chocolate chips. After this I was super full and felt gross. foodies-595I made dinner for the Matt and mom and myself which was pasta with turkey and green beans and I also mixed in some calabacitas from earlier. Those little biscuits are 55 cals each, good deal huh? I ate 2 or 3 times what was pictured here and felt overly full again. I told you, it was ALL FREAKIN’ DAY! foodies-596

After this I told myself that I was done for the night, but I got bored and thrown into my usual habits an hour later and had some PB Puffins and hot cocoa. That was so not necessary. I don’t get why I keep doing this when I know it is not working for me.

Rarrr! Rant ended.


  1. anna says

    aww i like your honesty! and your food it’s healthy and great
    hey at least you didn’t eat pizza or greasy food :)

    ps. i love calabacitas! and even more with cotija or panela cheese yay!

  2. Michelle in Alaska says

    Hey Monica,

    I don’t know if I have commented before – but I wanted to tell you that you do not look chubby! I think you look very healthy!!! I worked on gaining weight so I could look healthy like girls like you!!! Just thought I would let you know!

  3. runeatrepeat says

    Anna – Thanks :) If nothing else I’m honest, right? Oooh, I’m glad I’m not the only one that likes calabacitas!

    Michelle – Thanks, that’s very sweet :) But, like I said in the facts about me I look better in pics than in person. And I’m soooo not lying!

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