Today I was thinking about why I always eat snacks after dinner. It is a habit I’ve be writing about since I started the blog, yet I’ve made no progress on! So why am I still doing it? I think there are 2 reasons:
1. The RD said that some of the time it’s because I don’t eat enough during the day. This is true sometimes, but not everyday.
2. I save the best for last.
By saving the best for last I mean – Sometimes I don’t eat what I really want during the day and all my inhibitions go out the window by the end of the day. Like I will want a cookie or something after lunch, but I won’t have it because it’s not good for me. After a whole day of eating certain things I’ve allowed myself during the day I want a “treat” for my good work. Why can’t I have a cookie or frozen yogurt in the afternoon? I only allow myself to eat these treats at “treat time” after dinner. So tomorrow I am going to eat a treat when I want it and stop letting all hell break loose after dinner.
Okay, that was my rant to myself. Done.
I packed an okay lunch today, which kinda sucked because I was super hungry by 11am! Since I am waking up earlier I am hungry earlier (I run and eat breakfast earlier too). I don’t know how I am going to switch this around because I don’t really want to be eating lunch at 11am… AB&J and fruit and carrots (no pic).
My afternoon snack was yogurt and a Fiber One bar. Perfect to fuel me for a my walk home! The walk home takes me an hour which I don’t mind, but I need to remember that if I want to accomplish things after work.
When I got home I had some cherries and maybe a few chips.
Dinner was a big salad topped with chickpeas that I soaked over night…Before
After – They get so big
Ensalada with hummus for dressing. I get the hummus from Costco and good thing it’s big container or I would slap Ben’s hand away from it. I love it.
Dessert! Chocolate, chocolate, chocolate. I would have had ice cream, but we don’t have any. x4ish
Trigger - Even though I originally started this blog as a tool to help me lose weight, I try not to talk about weight too much. I think talking about my weight would help others realize that these struggles are normal and you can still eat (a lot!) and lose weight. I am still working toward my goals, but I don’t want to talk about my frustrations too much because I don’t want to trigger those with ED issues. You guys know I am real as all shit here, so I’m sorry if anything I say triggers your ED tendencies.
I’m writing about this because one or two of the blogs I read trigger me sometimes and I am struggling with whether or not I should continue to read them. When someone feels super guilty or apologetic about eating a piece of dessert or something fried it makes me feel like I should feel guilty too. F-that.
Question: Do any of the blogs you read make you feel like you should Eat Less? Eat More? Be perfect? Feel guilty if you so much as touch something fried (the other F-word)?