About a year ago I started on my Intuitive Eating journey. After years and years of crash dieting, restricting, binging, frustration and self hatred I was desperate to find a real, lasting solution to my weight issues.
I heard about the book “Intuitive Eating” from research and blogs. I had actually already read several of Geneen Roth’s books, which encourage intuitive eating too.
But – while I felt that intuitive eating was a healthy way to maintain weight, I didn’t think it would help me lose weight. I was skeptical. I mean, I have serious issues with food. I can’t just ‘hope them away’.
I thought, “It’s not going to work for me.”
And it didn’t.
But, now looking back I realize that it didn’t work because it takes work! Figuring out your body and your mind and your emotions (when your eating issues are intertwined) is very HARD.
I established a long time ago that I don’t know when I’m hungry. I tried to figure that out, but it was difficult. A few times I didn’t realize I was hungry, let myself get overly hungry and then would binge.
I decided it didn’t work, but I still really (really, really!) wanted to lose weight so I thought about diets. I thought about weight watchers. I thought about South Beach. And then I thought about my last meal before my diet. And then I binged.
I cannot do a “diet” diet any more. I used up all my willpower during college when I would run 6 miles in the morning and eat a Slim Fast bar for breakfast. Every last drop of willpower went into those times.
So now what?
I still want to lose weight. And not just for vanity reasons (even though that is a big motivator). I want to be healthier and faster and fitter. I want to run a sub-4 hour marathon! I want to kick ass so bad.
But how do I lose weight if I can’t/won’t/shan’t diet?
Enter Evelyn Tribole!
I’ve read the book. I’ve following blogs of Intuitive Eaters, but now I need to identify the main issues that are keeping me from getting to a healthier weight for my average height.
I will be seeing her for sessions in an effort to finally conquer this beast. I’m excited! I’m revved up! And I’m finally ready to work for it without starving or dieting. Intuitive Eating is hard when you have a history like mine, but I want this to work very bad. I’m going to do it.
A year ago when I came to her I made a little progress. At least I acknowledged there was a problem (which is the first step). But, now I realize I need to work harder at it. And so the journey begins…
Added bonus: Did you know she is a runner? Evelyn “gets” the need to run and fuel properly! If she can’t help me, I don’t know who can 🙂
Back to normal RER foodies…
(the above was written earlier today)
But right after that I went to the family greeting / viewing for my friend who passed away. I have a lot to talk about regarding the appointment, but I can’t do it tonight. I’m sad and will see you tomorrow 🙁
P.S. – Check out my guest post at Meals and Moves!