Operation Beautiful – My Story

I got my copy of Operation Beautiful today and thought this would be the perfect time to share my OB story icon smile Operation Beautiful – My StoryIMG 0128 thumb Operation Beautiful – My Story

Ever since her first post-it note, Caitlin’s concept behind Operation Beautiful really spoke to me. I have always prided myself on being very supportive and positive towards friends and acquaintances. But inside my own head I am constantly berating myself for being fat, having bad skin, not being smart enough… I could go on.

I had been criticizing myself for so long I didn’t even realize I was doing it all the time. Anytime I would catch a glance of my legs in a reflection I would get super embarrassed at how fat I was. It was a horrible existence.

Looking back, I remember the first time I realized I was fat. It was in third grade when someone called me a “Hippo”. I still remember that day icon sad Operation Beautiful – My StoryALTARGIRLS thumb Operation Beautiful – My Story

The thing is, I wasn’t even really fat. Sure, I was on the chubby side and bigger than my friends, but it was nothing that couldn’t be fixed with a little less sweets and a little more games of tag.

But, instead of playing outside I holed up in embarrassment. I have been self conscious of my body since the age of 8. It’s really sad because before this time I was a very confident and out going child. COSTUMES thumb Operation Beautiful – My Story

Around the same time Caitlin created Operation Beautiful I was preparing for my wedding. I was about 15 pounds overweight for my height (I’m being conservative). Of course I wanted to look my best on my wedding day and was considering doing a crash diet.

But after really digging deep and thinking about it, I decided I didn’t want to starve myself for superficial reasons. More than anything else I wanted to be happy and feel good.

So instead of working on a food diet, I went on a positive thinking binge.

I reminded myself that I had tons of friends and family coming to the wedding and they liked me just as I was. I also reminded myself that Ben asked me to marry him even with the extra 15 pounds. And he would be waiting for me at the end of the aisle no matter what the scale said.

Life is way too short to be worrying about your weight when you should be in the moment. Especially if that moment requires you to stare into the eyes of the man of your dreams.143 thumb Operation Beautiful – My Story

I jumped on board the Operation Beautiful train and actually went on a posting spree as I drove across the country last summer. Every time I posted a note it made me feel better and more positive about myself.

I posted in Salt Lake City, DSCN0010 thumb Operation Beautiful – My StoryYellowstone, Mount Rushmore and more!DSCN0088 thumb Operation Beautiful – My Story

And to prove how much good karma comes back to you when you do good deeds – a complete stranger left Ben and I an “Operation Marriage” note! It was the sweetest thing that has ever happened to me.

If you haven’t posted a note yet, do it today. You have a scrap of paper and a pen. Write a note. Even if the note doesn’t make you feel better about how you look, it will make you feel better about the kind of person you are and what you are contributing to the world icon smile Operation Beautiful – My Story

And don’t forget to pick up Caitlin’s book! One of my notes is on page 100 icon smile Operation Beautiful – My Story IMG 0131 thumb Operation Beautiful – My Story

You are beautiful. Thanks for reading. OperationBeautifulpic thumb Operation Beautiful – My Story

Comments

  1. says

    What a beautiful story. Thank you for sharing this Monica and remind everyone that we all struggle with our visions of beauty. Coming from such a strong and beautiful girl, it really makes it more impactful! ;)

  2. says

    Monica, what an incredibly story. Nearly brought tears to my eyes when you described how you started thinking to prep for your wedding! I know it’s definitely something I need to stop doing to myself – beating myself up is just a waste of time. You’re right. Life’s too short.

    Maria

  3. says

    Thanks for sharing your story! I wish I had started to grasp all of that positive energy before my wedding…unfortunately for me, my “enlightenment” that there was way more to life than the scale came about 2 months POST wedding. But better late than never! :)

  4. says

    Loved this post! I didn’t realize you got married last year, I think I started reading after that point… now I want to go back and read your wedding posts :)

  5. says

    Great post! It’s such a shame how other people influence our thoughts on ourselves!! I’m pretty sure that I saw one of your post its on the TODAY show this morning!

  6. says

    LOVE THIS. I was in the same position as you leading up to our wedding a few months ago, and Dan kept reminding me of all those positive things that you mentioned. And you know what? Your wedding pic is gorgeous!

  7. says

    That’s so great! I’m right there with you on the losing weight for my wedding next May thing. I’m trying to just be healthy and let the weight follow.

    Great story . . . onto reading your marriage note next!

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