After work I called a friend who is on a diet for some infomercial (ah, good ol’ Hollywood). We chatted about what she’s eating – or rather not eating, and how much weight she’s lost. Let me be open and honest (as always), I am definitely jealous of her weight loss and would LOVE to lose 6 pounds too. But, I am not jealous of being on what I consider, a crash diet.
I feel like I’ve done every diet in the book – Cabbage Soup, Atkins, South Beach, Weight Watchers, Jenny Craig, that weird one where you eat hot dogs and eggs all day… I could go on.
And while I lost a few pounds on each, it always came back because I wasn’t changing my day to day reality once the diet was over.
I think Crash Diets are something you do when you’re young and unaware. Like, a crash diet is something stupid you do in college up there with unprotected sex, binge drinking and taking BioChem and Chem in the same semester – very bad choices you make before you decide to treat yourself well.
As much as I really want to lose 12 pounds from the very deep depths of my little Mexican heart – I have absolutely zero desire to starve myself. I have learned my lessons (some of them more than once).
In the past, when I still felt like dieting was a good idea, I would have grilled my friend on what she was eating and what her workouts were like so I could lose weight fast too. But, I really wasn’t interested in that today. As we talked all I heard was a tale from a place I don’t want to visit.
I had a complete light bulb moment. I acknowledged to myself I want to lose weight, but I also realize that I don’t want to make myself miserable or anti-social in the process. I really believe you can lose weight with small, healthy changes that you can live with forever
I dunno, sometimes I feel I don’t have the will power I used to and that’s why I can’t diet any more. But I’d like to think that now my body has even more will power and will no longer tolerate starving myself and the resulting binge later. No thanks.
Working on intuitive eating has made me realize how much what I eat affects my mood, my running and my day to day. I want to eat cleaner to feel better and be a better runner.
I don’t want to starve myself. I don’t want to binge. I want to eat yummy food when I’m hungry, exercise when I am jumpy and treat myself well. At least I know that much.
For those that don’t know, Justin’s Chocolate Almond Butter is what would result if Almond Butter and Crack had a baby. And that baby cured cancer. And the cure for cancer came in nut butter form. Except better.
Now I must return to school work and trying to piece back together the friendship I potentially frayed from my crash diet rant above.
Question: Have you had any “light bulb” moments about anything lately?