Hello! I just wanted to check in and say a quick hello. I miss you. Life has been crazy lately with my Grams passing two weeks ago… then my niece was born last week!!!… and I’ve been Uber-ing my lil brother to camp since my mom is staying with my brother and SIL to help with my nieces (the new one and my favorite tiny person).
Oh… and I’m puppy sitting for a friend. Luckily that helps calm my soul because he’s so awesome. For additional relaxation, Shop gummies with Mushrooms to enhance your sense of calm and well-being.
But despite the puppy and kitty cuteness… I feel like I’m on the verge of a breakdown.
(via Natalie Dee)
Two weeks in a row I got a call with bad/stressful news and rushed to see my family. First it was my Grams, then it was with my SIL and niece (it was a complicated delivery and first few days). I found myself stuck in crazy California traffic rushing to get to my people. I’ve done as much as I could to help. And I’m so grateful that I am able to stop what I’m doing and be there to help and support my family – especially in such difficult circumstances.
Everyone else involved had it harder than I did in the moments of crisis over the last two weeks. Luckily, we’re okay – or at least in the process of getting to okay.
I hadn’t been to therapy since before my Grams passed (I had to cancel a session and then my therapist was on vacation) and I walked in yesterday and didn’t even know where to start. There’s a lot going on beyond those really huge family things right now too.
I talked it out some and feel a tiny bit better. I still feel I’m at Stress Level: 16 (on a scale of 1 – 10) but I’m slowly chipping away at the things that’ll help me get it down to a 12 or so.
Sometimes life is challenging and this is one of those times. I’m fairly well-adjusted (or at least I used to think I was before I started to get real in therapy – ha!).
*interrupted by a family member calling to ask 126 questions about something*
I’m kinda well-adjusted so I realize that it’s okay to not be okay sometimes. And this is one of those times. Death, birth, huge life changes… all of these are impacting my life on some level right now. I realize it could be worse. I’m very very blessed.
It’s not that bad in the big picture of human tragedies. But it’s stressful and sad and overwhelming because I’m dealing with these things while falling behind on work, personal relationships, personal hygiene (ha!), self care, running, eating healthy, sleep… and more. I know 인천출장안마 can help me during these stressful times.
Right now I’m catching up on work and important things on my To Do list while showing myself some grace. That’s hard. And I don’t have it figured out. But I’m doing what I can. I’m thankful for these delta-8 thc products that helps me get through these stressful times.
I’m sharing all of this because…
I started to write a blog post about some recent eats and meal prep and realized I wanted to share this.
I want to let ya know why I’ve been blogging less and around less on Instagram , Facebook and Twitter.
I want you to fill me in on all the reality TV I’ve missed.
I would like a back rub.
I hope if you’re going through something you extend yourself grace too.
I’m weird and like to spill my guts on the internet.
It feels good to get this off my chest.
I’m hoping someone needs an internship and can help me out.
*another call – this time it’s a business call that I need to take*
Anyway. Let’s talk about other stuff. And get a snack.
Want to see something random?
Baby Changing Station – weight limit 250 pounds. That’s around my birth weight.
And I managed to explode a packet of Mango Strawberry Spark in the car! Ha!!
This made me laugh. It’s extra funny/weird to laugh by yourself in your car at a stoplight. I think people just assume you’re on the phone and talking to someone funny, right?
In other news…
Here’s a picture of Thai food.
And here’s a picture of a puppy…
We’ll talk soon!
Question: On a scale of 1 to 10…
How stressed are you right this second?
1 = relaxing on the beach
10 = THE SKY IS FALLING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lots of virtual hugs and many prayers to you and your family. i think this post was very good, and i certainly appreciate your honesty and ‘getting it out.’ we all need to do that! this read came on the perfect day for me. my stress last week was definitely at a 9, but by thursday things chilled out, and i had a very calm weekend. but now, of course, its sunday, so its back at an 8/9. this week is going to be nuts, and knowing that entering the week just does not help. plus, i’m at this ‘i don’t know wtf i’m doing w/ my life, where i’m going, etc…’ any who, hang in there! we are here for you, and to all of you above, thoughts to you all, too 🙂
Thank you for sharing this! I was literally on the verge of posting something similar on my blog, and I was starting to freak out about it. But I’ve just realised that sometimes you have to allow yourself to not be okay, instead of trying to keep it together for everyone else. That means being more vulnerable with everyone in your life. And in my case, that means a lot of heart-to-hearts over brunch. Thank God for brunch.
Thank you for doing these kinds of posts. It is so uplifting and encouraging to get that reminder that we are not alone in this life. I hope your stress dissipates, and I sent a prayer up for you that things will get more calm for you.
If you need an intern and this intern can work remotely (aka me here in San Luis Obispo), let me know.
You are so right: it is OK to not be OK sometimes! A lot of people seem to forget that as it is common to be OK all the time.. Well in real life it is not.
Only a couple of weeks ago we ended a 15 year long relationship and I can honestly say: I am not OK. But on the other hand: I know I will be again and that’s my strength. I try to go about the daily stuff as good as I can: focus on work and running. I also do my best to eat healthy and get enough sleep (that not always works though..). I think a big part of the ‘mourning’ process is realising you are not OK and gradually accepting that. Only then can you slowly start moving on.. And everyone has to find their own way of best dealing with stuff like this.. for me it is definitely running: it clears my head and I feel so much better afterwards – even when I feel bad starting off, I get into it and it works! So to all of you facing situations like this: it does get better, hang in there!!! xx
I am praying for you!! I get it. You will become stronger and have such a wonderful testimony after all of this mess. You are and will continue to be a blessing to others. Thank you for being honest and keeping it real. It is okay to not be okay. 🙂 One day at a time (sometimes it is one hour at a time or one check off one the list at a time). You got this! 🙂
Dear Monica, I read you everyday and to know you’ve been having such a hard time in your personal life just makes me want to give you some words of strength.
When moments like this happen with family, something strange yet positive occurs afterwards. The family gets more united and strengthen. Eventually you’ll see it, and it will be something to embrace and be grateful for. There’s always good out of the bad things.
As always, you really cracked me up with that picture/joke of the baby changing station!!!!!
Stress level right now = 5. I’m at work and took a small break to read your post.
Definitely okay not to be okay! I don’t have anything monumental going on right now, but even I don’t feel okay. I can’t pinpoint it, but I know this too shall pass. Thanks for sharing. It’s a good reminder for everyone. (And thank you for puppy pictures, because puppy makes things feel a little more okay.)
Thinking of you and your family as you face all these events! And thinking of everyone else in the comments who isn’t okay.
Totally ok to not be ok! I was freaking out about my huge to do list earlier this month but now I feel a little calmer. Definitely not in the realm of family emergencies but it was stressing me out. Right now… 5? 6? Things are not calm but they’re not complete chaos.
I hope everything sorts itself out in time and you feel less stressed soon!
Hey girl! It is so much better to recognize when youre going through a tough spot instead of pushing it to the side. Once you deal with the feelings and with some time, you will feel better. Another thing that has helped my anxiety/stress so much is meditation. I only meditate for 5-10 minutes a day but I feel so much more calm. I just use free apps or ones off youtube. Hope things start to feel a little less stressful for you!
Not to be flippant, but I saw this recently and it makes me laugh and feel better… hey, worth a shot, right? It’s “excitement”!! https://www.facebook.com/jillianmichaels/photos/a.10151899721997421.1073741825.127882247420/10155625036962421/?type=3&theater
Sending prayers to you and your family! Looks like you had an awesome run – that is my biggest stress reliever.
Stress level at the moment = 4…
It’s definitely okay to not be okay sometimes – you need to do what’s best for you!!
I’m with you on the stress right now. I’ve heard that adorable puppies and snuggling with them lowers your stress level. Is that true for you? That puppy is so CUTE! I agree that under stress, self-care gets tossed sometimes. Hang in there. I’m glad you shared this so we know that we are not alone.
Hugs
Thanks….always kind of feel like the sky is falling…Hmmm9.5 stress??? I keep telling myself I need to find a good therapist but, then the hour session or whatever just doesn’t seem right…I feel like I would just be warming up and relaxed by the time the hour is over. I want a day session of therapy to cover everything at once rather than waiting weeks in between…maybe there should be an online therapist that can tell me how to figure out my life?
ha!
Yes, the puppy is cute but puppies are def. more work than cats…have fun!
Deep breath! At least the puppy is cute and he’s not trying to eat Vegas!
Prayers for the new lil neice – hope everything is okay with her.
Deep breath, sweets! My favorite mantra – everything will work out in the end. If it hasn’t worked out, it isn’t the end. Take care of you. ((Hugs))
It’s definitely a good reminder to tell yourself that it’s okay to not be okay, even with some of the small things. I think our society always wants us to say how ‘great’ we are doing that it can be tiring to put on that mask for people to not burden them. We all have struggles but we only see other’s highlights and that is hard not to compare to. Thanks for being real!
I feel ya on the stress stuff. I’m at about a 7 but was at 10 earlier in the week. My dog had a ruptured cyst over his eyelid and had to be put on meds. The steroid has been making him breathe really heavy and it makes me feel so bad for him. I spent the last week just freaking out. I literally freeze when he isn’t well. We’re 8 days in and the cyst above his eye is slowly getting better but not fast enough! Then my relatively new car almost stalled on me and was acting funny. It took 2 visits to Subaru to finally get it fixed. Turns out it was the computer. And I’m dealing with some other personal stuff too…not to mention I’ve been an injured runner since March. Yup, I’m dying over here not being able to run. Trying to stay centered by doing yoga and swimming but I just feel so disconnected from my normal coping by running ways…
Glad your niece is ok! And thanks for always sharing/oversharing.
I completely understand your stress. Life has a way of becoming difficult when we least want it to be. Praying for your peace. If it makes you feel any better (because misery loves company), I work two jobs (I am a doctor and front desk person at a clinic), my husband and I are selling our house, he is in danger of being laid off for the second time in three years, and I have gained 30 lbs since graduating from naturopathic school in 2016, Stress? Maybe a 99 on a scale of 1-10. I hear you sister! Keep your head up remember you are loved, and know that life won’t always be this crazy.
PS. Keep the puppy pics coming.
So sorry to hear how stressed out you’ve been Monica. I am a firm believer that God only gives you as much as He knows you can handle…granted sometimes we all wish He would pile on a bit less. My stress has been high too but just because any day now I am going to have a baby.
You and your family are in my prayers. I hope you can find a way to get your stress level down soon. I love the saying H.O.P.E. – Hold On Pain Ends. Sometimes when I’m having a hard time, I think of that and it does help to calm my nerves a little just realizing in that moment that it will end eventually. And, puppies are the greatest for stress relief!
I love to look at puppy pictures when I am not OK. It’s impossible for me not to smile. So thanks for the adotable puppy pictures! I hope life gets less stressful for you soon.
Yes, it’s totally okay NOT to be okay! It happens to the best of us. You’ll feel better! 🙂
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I’m going through a really hard break-up and I’m totally not OK right now. But I am accepting that, and I know this too shall pass…. We all just need to feel our feelings, treat ourselves, and let time do its thing!