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A Fearless Fresh Start

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3 Feb

As you may be aware, my blog was down for 2 days.

I cried. Monica is a sissy lala

(Please note the dark chocolate wedges on my desk and lack of hygiene. I am a mess.)

No really, I cried about it. And I don’t cry. The blog is basically my job right now and I have all my little stars tied to it (does anyone else use that analogy? It’s an inside joke.). Monica is losing it

Anyways, after I cried (and scared Ben to death, as he doesn’t see me cry) I picked myself up and decided this was a sign that I needed a fresh start.

I knew I needed to get away from the computer so I went to yoga. I may have thought about my failed blog 98% of the time, but at least I was away from my computer.

Yoga room

Then, I went to my happy place – Trader Joe’s. Seriously, look at that blue sky. I shouldn’t be complaining about crap right now.

Trader Joes

In case you’re having a bad day too, let me share some amazing news with you: Trader Joes now has Peanut Butter Cream Cheese. Yeah, I know – things area already looking up!

Trader Joes Peanut Cream Cheese

And Strawberry Cream Cheese! Sounds like I need to make a PB&J Cream Cheese sandwich asap!

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Lunch was boring…

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But I’m sharing it because of my favorite Spinach Dip – IMG_7763

I put it on the bread instead of mayo hummus. It has less calories than hummus and is super tasty! Highly recommend.

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I fueled up for an afternoon of more crying with a jug of iced coffee and Vitatop. I may have also had some Cheerios, don’t judge I’m in a bad place.

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And now for the fresh start… I didn’t run this morning because I was meeting up with a running group this evening!

I’ve taken the last 24 hours to re-examine my goals with running, my career, the blog and auditioning for American Idol.

Okay, not the last one, but I would love to meet Jennifer Lopez. She and I need to make  some big booty babies together even though that’s not how babies are made. I love jennifer lopez

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I want to get involved with local runners and local races. I want to finish up my PT certification (more on that soon!). I want to run faster and jump higher and accomplish some big goals this year!

I’ve used my down time from RER to cry organize my training, studying and explore some possible career opportunities. I’m excited for a fresh start Smile

Truth be told, I am very uncomfortable about sharing my goals here because I fear failure. I didn’t announce my goal to do a sub 4hour marathon before Long Beach because I would be embarrassed if I didn’t make it. Well, we all know I missed it by 4 minutes, but I wasn’t embarrassed and no one ridiculed me for coming up short.

I am going to add a new Resolution for 2011 now – Be Fearless.

I need to own my goals and be proud that I’m shooting for the stars. I’m going to be announcing my 2011 goals very soon. I am going to be fearless about it. The only thing standing in the way of my goals is ME.

Monica cries. At least one time.

But for now I’m not sleeping until RER is back up and RUNNING (pun intended).www.nataliedee.com
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Before my entire life crashed before my eyes I did the accent vlog. Here’s the link in case you missed me rambling on for 7 1/2 minutes – about 4 minutes long than everyone else.

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    1. chandra says

      2011-02-04 at 2:39 am

      #1 – I am SO glad your blog is back!! It was tough enough being sick, but being sick with no entertainment via RER was even worse!

      #2 – I can’t wait to hear your goals!! Do I get a sneak peak? Call me, you know I’m nosey and impatient. 😉

      #3 – I love, Love, LOVE that picture you have framed on your desk! “I used to run with Doubt..” Is that just an ad you found somewhere or a poster/picture I can order?? For real – I want.

      Reply
    2. Anne P says

      2011-02-03 at 10:23 pm

      Welcome back 🙂 What was wrong with the blog?!

      Reply
    3. Cat says

      2011-02-03 at 10:11 pm

      My boyfriend sent me an email yesterday with the subject line “On Topic” and linked this article: http://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/the-science-success/201102/why-letting-yourself-make-mistakes-means-making-fewer-them

      At first I was like “Oh NO he didn’t!” and then I read it and it was fine and helpful. Thought you might like it too 🙂 Glad to see the blog is back up and running! No pun intended. Okay. Maybe. A little.

      Reply
    4. Megan says

      2011-02-03 at 8:47 pm

      Missed you!!! Loved the way you went to yoga even though you thought about it..i’m sure you felt much better after stepping away from the comp.

      Reply
    5. Emily Malone says

      2011-02-03 at 8:21 pm

      Yaaaay – I MISSED YOU! Welcome back. My blog makes me cry all the time. 🙂

      Reply
    6. Cait says

      2011-02-03 at 8:07 pm

      As much as it stinks that your blog was down, alas whenever the internet is down for me I do a FREAK OUT moment too, I would have cried as well. But at least you are back on track and doing a ‘fresh start’ Your new goal of being fearless is inspiring! get it girl!!

      Reply
    7. Kate says

      2011-02-03 at 8:03 pm

      I just love your stinkin’ blog so much! Yoga and Trader Joe’s always make me feel better!!!

      Reply
    8. Rose says

      2011-02-03 at 7:51 pm

      Welcome back!

      Reply
    9. Vanessa says

      2011-02-03 at 7:46 pm

      Hi Monica 🙂 So glad you’re back. This post really resonated with me because I’ve allowed both my weight and fear get in the way of accomplishing many goals and living the quality of life I know I deserve. I can sense your excitement on embarking on your new adventures fearlessly and it inspires me greatly to move foward fearlessly s well. You’re awesome, chica.

      Reply
      • runeatrepeat says

        2011-02-03 at 8:06 pm

        We can do it! You’re awesome too 🙂

        Reply
    10. Ashley says

      2011-02-03 at 7:16 pm

      I doubt this makes you feel any better, but I cried yesterday too – after I found out TJ’s discontinued peanut flour 🙁 My husband was like, “That’s your entire problem? Really, you’re serious?”

      Reply
    11. Melissa (MelissaLikesToEat) says

      2011-02-03 at 7:15 pm

      Welcome back!! I’m sure that must have been so frustrating!!!
      By the way…I need to try that spinach dip!! Putting it on a sandwich is genius!

      Reply
    12. Stefanie @TheNewHealthy says

      2011-02-03 at 6:38 pm

      Ah, I know how you feel about blogging problems! I had some problems with commenting last week and I about went crazy! So glad everything is back to normal. 🙂

      Be fearless is a fabulous goal too!!

      Reply
    13. Caitlin says

      2011-02-03 at 6:28 pm

      I saw your tweets last night and actually thought you were done blogging- I almost cried. I’m glad you are back and your blog is back and working!:)
      Happy thursday!

      Reply
    14. griselda says

      2011-02-03 at 6:00 pm

      hi! welcome back! i am so gad youre back…i MUST go to trader joes soon. those spreads WILL be mine! 🙂

      Reply
    15. Sarah says

      2011-02-03 at 5:52 pm

      Poor Monica :(.
      I’m excited about your fearless fresh start. What does it matter if you fail, really? What matters is that you try and that you don’t let fear hold you back. (Maybe I need to listen to my own advice a little more often, too.)

      Reply
    16. Lisa says

      2011-02-03 at 5:52 pm

      Glad you are up and running again. Isn’t it frustrating? That’s happened to me a few times with my blog and I felt so helpless and angry! It’s frustrating when you can’t FIX something!

      Reply
    17. Morgan @ Becoming Rooks says

      2011-02-03 at 5:47 pm

      I am so glad you’re back – and this blog is 100% win! I, too, fear failure and the (self conceived) judgement that comes along with it so I hesitate to ever tell anyone my goals. Living fearless sounds so freaking awesome it’s making me feel less fearless already!! I think you just managed to sweep away my anxiety over my first yoga class tonight.

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      • runeatrepeat says

        2011-02-03 at 5:50 pm

        Yoga used to scare me, but you do really walk out of class feeling better 🙂 Good luck!

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    18. Ella says

      2011-02-03 at 5:18 pm

      woohoo congrats on the new goal – i like that one!
      good luck with the PT – i have a lot of friends who are in their 3rd year of PT school and its soooo much work but worth it in the end (:

      …pb cream cheese?! why isn’t my college closer to a trader joes….

      Reply
    19. Lived in Wien! says

      2011-02-03 at 5:18 pm

      GIRL! SO GLAD YOU ARE BACK! Your goals MOTIVATE ME. So whether you meet them or not, is really not the point. Isn’t the quote “Reach for the stars so if you fall, you land on the clouds…” You get farther when you set goals, and when you make the public, you get accountability and encouragement.

      Reply
      • runeatrepeat says

        2011-02-03 at 5:38 pm

        I know I’m so bad at making my goals public for fear of failure 🙁 I’m going to be better about that!

        Reply
    20. Cassidy @ takingmyplace says

      2011-02-03 at 5:12 pm

      Being fearless and owning your goals- that is awesome. I think your readers are behind you no matter what. So glad your blog is up and running again.

      Reply
    21. Katy says

      2011-02-03 at 5:05 pm

      I cried for you a little, too…but I cry at EVERYTHING, so that’s not saying much. So glad you’re back!

      Reply
      • runeatrepeat says

        2011-02-03 at 5:37 pm

        Thanks for helping me through the Fitblog chat! I had a blast and in hindsight it was good timing for me to focus on something else for a bit 🙂

        Reply
    22. emily says

      2011-02-03 at 4:44 pm

      Yay, so glad you’re back!

      Reply
    23. Dorry says

      2011-02-03 at 4:03 pm

      It should be reassuring that you were missed while your blog was down! But still, technology problems that are out of our control are the worst. I would have cried, too. Excited for you to tackle your goals and be fearless. I know I can relate to that in my life right now as well!

      Reply
    24. amy@healthyhungryhappy.com says

      2011-02-03 at 3:57 pm

      yay youre back! you were missed! 🙂

      Reply
    25. Emily says

      2011-02-03 at 3:57 pm

      Shut up. Peanut butter cream cheese?
      I’m so finding that this weekend.

      Reply
    26. Green Dog Wine says

      2011-02-03 at 3:40 pm

      Sorry about the bloggy problems – that is definitely never fun! (plus I’m terrible with all that tech stuff – so I just FREAK OUT, and then have no plan of attack!) – but good news – you are popular! 😉 Also – thanks for the tip on the TJ’s dip, I haven’t had that one so I’ll have to snag it next time I go!

      Reply
    27. Ida says

      2011-02-03 at 3:40 pm

      I’m glad your blog is feeling better! I think joining a running group is a great idea too.

      Reply
    28. Rapid Gigabitz says

      2011-02-03 at 3:33 pm

      i like it A Fearless Fresh move | Run chew and swallow cite now im your rss reader

      Reply
    29. Danielle E. says

      2011-02-03 at 3:31 pm

      Great post and I was going through RER withdrawls while you were gone, no really! 😉

      I am tempted to drive to TJ’s in my pajamas this morning to get those cream cheeses, OMFG DO WANT!!!

      I know what you mean by owning your goals, I felt dumb for having a time goal for my first marathon. Then when I missed it by 3 minutes I was embarrassed to tell people around me (non-runners) that I was disappointed by that, I think I was owning THEIR feelings by minimizing my own. Does that make any sense? IDK. It’s too early, back to the coffee for me, but glad you are back. 🙂

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      • runeatrepeat says

        2011-02-03 at 5:36 pm

        Let me know if you go to TJ’s in your PJs 🙂

        Reply
    30. Tina says

      2011-02-03 at 3:25 pm

      I feel your pain, sister. CNC was down for almost a week back in May. I lost it about 10 times! Lots of crying.

      SO GLAD you’re back!!!

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      • runeatrepeat says

        2011-02-03 at 5:35 pm

        I’m pretty sure these last 2 days took a year off my life 🙁
        So glad that’s over!

        Reply
    31. Whitney says

      2011-02-03 at 3:24 pm

      Wow dude that sucks, sorry to hear about it.

      On the bright side, you still have you readership following so it’s not like you are losing anything that generates your income.

      I understand the content issues, but they can be resolved to some degree. The most “important stuff” I’m sure you can find cached, ya know?

      Good luck!

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    32. dana @ my little celebration says

      2011-02-03 at 3:20 pm

      Sorry you had bloggy troubles! I checked in on you a couple of times but it came up as error. But I’m glad to see you’re back up and running!

      Oh happy day!

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      • runeatrepeat says

        2011-02-03 at 5:34 pm

        Thanks for checking back!

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    33. Amanda says

      2011-02-03 at 3:08 pm

      Ugh my blog was down for 3 days when we switched servers! I cried too. It was horrible. I feel your pain.

      PB CREAM CHEESE? Holy sheeeeeet. I need to go to Trader Joe’s after teaching class today. You just made my day.

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      • runeatrepeat says

        2011-02-03 at 5:32 pm

        You said sheeeet 🙂

        Reply
    34. Kristen says

      2011-02-03 at 3:02 pm

      I’m so happy you’re back! My Thursday just got a little better! 🙂

      Reply
    35. Carolyn @ Lovin' Losing says

      2011-02-03 at 2:35 pm

      Glad to have you back. I’m sorry you’ve had to deal with this. How did your host handle it? Is it time to switch?

      Reply
      • runeatrepeat says

        2011-02-03 at 5:31 pm

        Yeah, I switched hosts so hopefully that won’t happen again.

        Reply
    36. ashley@quasichick says

      2011-02-03 at 2:19 pm

      So glad your blog is back, I missed you 🙂

      Reply
      • runeatrepeat says

        2011-02-03 at 5:30 pm

        I missed you too 🙂

        Reply
    37. Christine @ Merf In Progress says

      2011-02-03 at 2:17 pm

      I actually just discovered your blog the day it was down. Irony? I’m glad it’s back up because I look forward to reading it. I am trying to eat healthier and exercise more and am looking for lots of inspiration!

      Reply
      • runeatrepeat says

        2011-02-03 at 5:29 pm

        Hi Christine and Welcome 🙂

        Reply
    38. Jess@atasteofconfidence says

      2011-02-03 at 2:03 pm

      Glad the blog is back and you are doing ok!
      Great about the running group, too!

      Reply
    39. Heather says

      2011-02-03 at 1:11 pm

      Can’t wait to hear more about your goals and I love the motto – be fearless.

      I am held back a lot by fear – something I definitely need to focus on and step outside my comfort zone more often.

      Glad the blog is back – I missed reading!

      Reply
      • runeatrepeat says

        2011-02-03 at 5:28 pm

        I am totally held back by fear 🙁 We can do it!

        Reply
    40. Kara says

      2011-02-03 at 1:04 pm

      I’m so glad you’re back! I was going through withdrawal 🙂

      Reply
      • runeatrepeat says

        2011-02-03 at 5:27 pm

        We were going through withdrawal together!

        Reply
    41. D says

      2011-02-03 at 1:02 pm

      Yay, glad your blog is back! I must have checked it about fifty times.

      I have a request (maybe you already discussed this in detail but I don’t think so…) for you to talk about/answer! 🙂

      How do you feel after switching back to meat? I know that you’ve said that protein/fats are keeping you much fuller and preventing the sugar highs/crashes and so on, but how do you feel about it emotionally? Is it weird after all this time or do you feel like it’s a natural progression as you figure out more about IE? Do you automatically still reach for veggie proteins or do you happily choose meat first? Does it feel like as big a deal as you thought?

      Sorry for bombarding you with questions…I’d just love to hear more about how you *feel* about the switch back to meat (your guest post on Meals and Moves made me think to ask) and not just in terms of physical fullness or satiety.

      Reply
      • runeatrepeat says

        2011-02-03 at 5:27 pm

        I am definitely having an inner battle with eating meat again. My views on meat have always been that I think it is ethically “okay” to eat animals if they are treated and killed humanely.
        Since I am educated on the factory farming system in the US, it’s a big struggle for me to figure out what I should do. On one hand I want to do what is best for my body – which right now seems to be eat chicken and turkey. But, I also want to do the “right” thing in NOT supporting factory farms.

        If Ben and I owned a farm and he killed the chicken and I gathered eggs – I would feel a lot better about it. But, buying poultry at the grocery store has me torn on the issue 🙁

        I still gravitate toward veggie protein or fish. When we recently went to a Mexican restaurant I thought, “There is nothing here I can eat.” Finally I ordered fried fish tacos. It never even occurred to me to order grilled chicken!

        I do feel like “allowing” all foods is helping me get past the final step of Intuitive Eating. After I am a true intuitive eater I may take poultry back out of my diet. But for right now I think it’s helping me be 100% mindful of my hunger and fullness and satiation.

        Hope this helps 🙂

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    42. caw says

      2011-02-03 at 1:01 pm

      Welcome back! My online running log went down for about three days and I cried – my husband thought I had lost my mind. So I cannot imagine a whole blog!

      Looking forward to your goals – put them out into the universe and go for it! Good luck!

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      • runeatrepeat says

        2011-02-03 at 5:21 pm

        Thanks Caw 🙂

        Reply
    43. Katie says

      2011-02-03 at 12:48 pm

      Im so glad your blog is back! What happened, I hope whatever happened it does not happen again : p I would of cried too!

      omg that cream cheese sounds amazing! I hate seeing new amazing trader joes stuff because I do not have one here! lol!

      I am excited to see your goals, I thing its great to have goals, even if you dont accomplish them all , the point is, you tried! xo

      Reply
    44. Eliz@The Sweet Life says

      2011-02-03 at 12:45 pm

      Take me to the place with the blue sky and palmtrees! Gorgeous. Glad your blog is back up and running.

      Reply
    45. Molly says

      2011-02-03 at 12:40 pm

      Im glad you’re back 🙂

      Reply
    46. alison says

      2011-02-03 at 12:27 pm

      Oh man, I’m sorry the last few days were so stressful for you. I suppose life wouldn’t be life without a few bumps in the road, but they certainly aren’t any fun.

      I’m so very glad Run, Eat, Repeat is back in business.

      Reply
    47. Stephanie @ The Cookie Battle says

      2011-02-03 at 12:11 pm

      That spinach dip rocks my world.

      Btw, we missed you!

      Reply
      • runeatrepeat says

        2011-02-03 at 5:17 pm

        I missed you guys too 🙂

        Reply
    48. CathyK says

      2011-02-03 at 11:50 am

      oooohh, i feel your pain and frustration with the blog issues, monica!! but the silver lining, i guess, is the time you got to think/plan/strategize your 2011 goals! looking forward to hearing about them!
      “be fearless” – love it!
      peanut butter cream cheese??? man, that sounds awesome!!
      here’s to things looking up for you today!

      Reply
    49. Kristy @ KristyRuns says

      2011-02-03 at 11:33 am

      Welcome back!!! 🙂 I’m so sorry you’ve had such a crummy couple days, but I’m excited for your ‘fresh start!’ Don’t forget, we’re here to support you and your goals! Go, Monica!!!

      Reply
      • runeatrepeat says

        2011-02-03 at 5:14 pm

        Thank you 🙂

        Reply

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