Last night I took some pictures of myself in my bathing suit. Ouch!
It showed me where I am now versus where I want to be physically. It’s not tragic, it’s just not good. I have a history of very negative self talk and destructive behavior when it comes to my body and dieting. This is not going to send me into a crash diet. I don’t want to be “dieting” for the rest of my life. I want to eat healthy and exercise to lose weight and really keep it off. I already have a very healthy life style. I exercise and I eat pretty healthy. But, there are some habits I have that are keeping me from being to weight I want.
Habits I need to change/work on:
1. Night time eating – I have a habit of eating after dinner when I am not hungry. It’s something my mom always did and as I got older I did it with her. There is nothing wrong with dessert, but snacking after dinner when you are not hungry is not good. To fix this if I want dessert I can have 1 small treat/dessert after dinner and then I am done for the day.
2. Over eating during “special events” – I treat myself on holidays, when I am out with friends or family or my BF because normally I eat so “good”. I feel I deserve to indulge because I normally don’t eat “bad” food. But, these events come too often. Each week we are going to a new or favorite restaurant or it’s a special occasion. This is my life and if I want to lose weight I have to keep my eating in check during these times.
3. Eating when I am bored or tired or other random emotion – I eat when I am tired, this fuels my nigh time eating problem. I eat when I am bored, food is fun. I need to find other things I like to do and replace eating with them. The key is to do something else fun, not a chore.
I will probably post the pictures when I have updated pictures to compare with them. This is crazy!