It is still raining today. I guess we have some crazy storm system that extends all the way from Hawaii and it’s going to rain through Thursday. Boo.b
But, the clouds parted for an hour this morning and I quickly ran out the door to get 6 miles in before it started again. Right as I was about .50 mile away it started to sprinkle. Perfect timing 
But, when I got home I discovered half a worm stuck to my leg. GROSS! I have no idea how that happened since I didn’t stop to stretch or anything. I must have kicked it up somehow and it stuck to me? Gross.
On the way home from my mom’s last night Ben and I talked about our goals for next year, life, finances with Alchemy Markets, and fun. We had a major set back in money and my career when we moved to Maryland. It was a hard hit and I still feel bad about it.
I learned a lot from the experience, it brought Ben and I a lot closer together (which is important since we were just married) and I made some great friends. But, I feel like there were a lot of things I should have done differently to bounce back from being let go from a job I moved 3,000 miles for.
As we were talking I realized that what’s done is done and I need to leave it in 2010. I have some regrets, but it’s over now. I’m packing up the lessons I learned to take with me into 2011. But the guilt, feelings of failure and regrets stay here. They don’t get to come along for the ride that will be the rest of my life.
While we’re at it – I’m sorry I’ve said dumb or mean things, reacted to situations in ways I’m not proud of and made mistakes in general. I guess I’m writing this as an apology to people I’ve hurt so it’s not as if I’m just trying to shirk the responsibility for my short comings.
I have a bunch of new goals and dreams that I am aiming for in 2011. I am motivated and excited and don’t want to be weighed down by my own self inflicted guilt.
On to brighter days!
Despite the drizzly weather I wanted a smoothie for breakfast. I’m now out of my favorite protein powder. Must get more asap!
With a side of PB toast with banana. I go through phases of eating bananas every day and then not eating them for a long time. I snagged this one from my mom’s because I missed them.
My Breakfast of Champions:
Vegas is not happy about the wet weather either. Doesn’t he look annoyed? Or maybe I’m what’s annoying him…
Question: Do you have anything you want to leave behind in 2010? (You don’t have to share what it is.)
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What’s the saying? “If you haven’t made a mistake you’re not trying hard enough.”
My mantra is “What’s done is done”. It started as a joke after my sister miscalculated and realized her run was 6 miles instead of 7, but it can apply to anything. I didn’t realize how much I hung on to residual guilt or anxiety about things in the past, and now I just tell myself “what’s done is done”, realize I can’t change it, and move on. So I am officially leaving all my guilt in 2010 – especially food guilt, life’s too short!
i need to leave behind the (mistaken) belief that happiness = single digit body fat percentage. at the expense of living it up with friends and family.
Yeah! Leave that belief behind and enjoy the last parts of this year with your family 🙂
I definitely want to leave some resentment and baggage in 2010, for sure!
Such a great attitude Monica! It’s so pointless to try to change the past and no matter how hard you try, the only thing you can change is tomorrow. Don’t see your past occurrences as defaults, rather more as experiences that made you a stronger and more wise person. Ben and you are going to have an amazing 2011!!!
I have to say that I love the honest of your post (and all of them, actually). It is tough to let go of self-inflicted guilt but you learned from it and are a better person now for it. I am trying to let go of hurt feelings and let things be but it is still hard!
Thank you 🙂
I am leaving behind self-doubt and these extra holiday lbs! My marathon training program starts on Jan 1, and I am ready to get going!
The worm is gross!! I’d like to have more patience in 2011!
ew for rain. ew for worms. i’m sure i do have lots of things that i want to leave behind from 2010 but for the most part 2010 was REALLY good to me and i’m glad that i left all the crap from 2009 and earlier behind!
i’ll be leaving my negative body image behind
Good one! Me too 🙂
2010 has been great, but I love the feeling of a new year. New beginnings, new resolutions, a little chance to start over 🙂 There’s definitely some things I’d like to leave behind this year!
That’s a really great way to look at the situation 🙂 Leave it behind and move on!
AMEN to leaving it in 2010. You obviously know my thoughts on this, and I am leaving the whole damn year behind! 2010 is over in my mind. 2011 will be heaven! Woop woop!
My lack of passion for school.
Only a blogger would find a worm on themselves and take a picture of it before shaking it off.
A better food blogger would have considered cooking it up for a post run breakfast?
ewwww.
For a lot of 2009 and some of 2010, I had complete desperation to change jobs. I have a new job now but I hope to leave that behind and never feel that way again!
Ok, I’m de-lurking myself to say I love your random photos Monica!
Looking back, I think 2010 was one of the hardest years I’ve ever had, work-wise, health-wise, love-wise… I am happy to leave it behind. But like you I’m hopeful I’ll carry the lessons I learnt into 2011. The first one of those being that sometimes, you really do just need a beer 😉
Hi 🙂 Thanks for stopping by to comment.
2010 is almost over and you did it – the good, bad and otherwise. Good luck in 2011!
I definitely have things I want to leave behind in 2010!
oh, and be glad you’re no up here in the mtns; we have snow flurries. boooooo hizzle.
Glad you got up there safe! Stay warm.
Did you end up doing 10 yesterday? That rain was for real.
i certainly have things I want to leave in 2010 and just get to 2011! i mean, i’m gonna run a marathon; that should be priority!
Yes–self-doubt that I couldn’t be a runner. Buh-bye!
🙂