
On the way to SF we stopped at a cherry stand. Big Surprise.
Saturday Lunch -
I also made a lettuce wrap with veggie deli slices and hummus. I wasn’t that hungry since I ate so many chips and stuff. I made Ben a ham sandwich bagel.
I also had a salad topped with crab. I didn’t like the crab on it, too cold and plain. I wanted something warm and buttery since I had been watching people eat crab from the shell outside. I pushed most of the crab away and ate the salad. I also had a ton of fries and calamari from Ben’s plate.
We went to Ghirardelli Square for dessert after a walk back to the hotel for a pants change. I was wearing a skirt and it was too cold! Luckily it was a nice little walk to let dinner settle before dessert.
We ordered a sundae with 1 scoop of each: chocolate and mint chip ice cream, topped with dark chocolate sauce, whipped cream and a dark chocolate square. We also got a cup of drinking chocolate that came with biscotti. Heaven. The chocolate sauce on the ice cream is made from their dark chocolate, it was so rich and delicious. I think there were even spots where there was too much sauce! But, I’m not complaining.
Because I have a problem with food I am going to be honest here. I figured I totally pigged out today. I ate a lot and was very full. I actually was overly full and felt like crap. So, I went back to the hotel room and ate the rest of the chocolate chip cookie from Friday night and a piece of a chocolate walnut cookie. Why? I don’t know, if I did know I wouldn’t have such a struggle losing weight. I used to have a major problem with the binge eating/restricting cycle. I am doing very well now. But, sometimes I do go back to my past bad habits. I am writing this for accountability. I am very ashamed of this, but the only way I can stop is to identify why I do it and find a way to stop.
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that soup sounds amazing! mm doughy bread = heaven. And I too struggle with listening to my body…we all do…at least you are able to notice it.. Tomorrow is another day!
Ive been reading your blog for a long time, and I have the same troubles with food…binging/restricting, and its really nice to see someone whos doing so well, y’know? I totally understand about the cookie, I do it all the time. “Ive already blown the day whats one more thing?”, when sometimes, I dont even WANT what Im eating! Its so hard, and I always wonder why the eating disorder happened to me, but…oh well. I just want to say that youre doing so much better than me, keep it up!