I had 10 miles on the schedule today, but around mile 2.5 I felt like I was hyperventilating. I was having my version of an anxiety attack (I’ve never had a legit anxiety attack so I don’t know). I felt like I couldn’t breathe and I wanted to scream and cry and quit all at the same time. I stopped running for a second and thought about walking home. But, the thought of that made me feel like an even bigger failure so I cut it to 7 miles instead.
Why the breakdown?
Well, now that he’s talked to his company I can share that Ben and I were northern California this weekend because he had a job interview. (That is also the reason we visited in Nov, but decided it was not a good time. They were persistent and wanted him to visit again.) We have been seriously considering moving over 500 miles away from my family, our condo, my job and the 2 friends we actually have. It’s been very stressful.
There is a lot behind all this stress… we’re trying to figure out a solid 5 year plan, we currently own a 1 bedroom condo with no room for a baby (and no money to buy a bigger place), hours at jobs have been cut in the last 6 months, money has to be put into our house, friends have been made here…
For the last few weeks we’ve been tossing around the idea of packing up Vegas and moving an 8 hour drive north. We wanted to give it a fair chance and spent all weekend looking at housing and exploring the area.
It’s complicated I shouldn’t share all the details on RER, but I’m putting out there as much as I can. Last night we decided to stay here (Ben is taking a position with another local company). 
It’s nice to have that weight off my chest, but I guess all the worry released on my run and I felt like I was losing it. I still feel a lot of anxiety. I feel like know I’ve been eating a lot. Then, I try to control what I’m eating to feel in control of my life. All this stuff has been going on since November and I’ve gained weight. I need to get back on track by treating myself well. I don’t want to go on a full-on diet, but I do need to be honest with myself and how I’ve been dealing with all this stress. (Also, my doctor cannot tell if my thyroid issues are making me gain weight if I’m stress eating – so I need to clean it up to see.)
I’ve been doing better since last week, but I just wanted to acknowledge that I am cutting back on the sugar and processed foods for a few weeks and filling my body up with healthy foods.
And in an effort to distract you from this downer of a post I’m doing a giveaway!
The other day I got a package from Sambazon of their chocolate almond coconut milk drink. They also sent another flavor, but this one is AMAZING. Every time I go to the store now Ben tells me to get more of them.
Well, I kindly asked the company rep if I can let one RER reader have 4 bottles of this Sambazon Protein drink and they agreed.
To Enter: Leave a comment. Any comment.
Contest closes tonight at 9pm PST. Open to residents of the US only.
So, um yeah… anyone else have a breakdown lately?
I have been there with running and trying to breath/crying. Praying that you feel well.
I totally get the breakdown; I’ve been on the verge of one myself lately. My husband and I are considering a move from Western NY to coastal Maine. Why? Simply put, we love it there. There are so many things for us outdoorsy types to do, and the thought of being minutes from the ocean and hours from the mountains at the same time, with so many other opportunities in between…
But our families are here, we both have stable jobs, and an inexpensive place to live. On one hand, it feels stupid to even consider giving this up – if we ever decided to come back, we wouldn’t be able to get these jobs back. But on the other hand, does it make sense to stay someplace just because it’s “easy” and “comfortable”?
I’m rambling…but long story short, I get it. 🙂
Drink sounds yummy
Everything will work out for the best! 🙂
That looks delicious!
Well, I am happy that you get to stay put 🙂 Nothing more stressful than moving. And then eating because your stressed and then stressed because of what your eating and so on….been there, live that. Hope life smooths out. Just remember that during those times of breakdown, theres always one of us probably crying about the exact same life-suck thing!
Thank you Sarah 🙂
Gah, oh yes my friend anxiety has sort of taken over my life lately. Andy and I are moving in a week (same city but it’s still stressful) and trying to decide when the right time to have kids is. It’s not an easy time being in your 20’s and trying to figure out how to be an adult. I totally get it. Hope you’re feeling a little bit better knowing that you’re staying.
Are you running The Color Run this weekend?
I am still not on the baby bandwagon, but will reluctantly climb aboard next Jan or so. Ben is tapping his foot. Better a foot tap then a baby crying? I don’t know.
No, I’m not running that race.
Hate to hear how stressful things are right now. Hope things settle down soon… maybe you need another trivp to Vegas!
awww! i got a little excited when you mentioned NorCal because I’m a SF runner and it would be so fun to have you here. But I’m thrilled for you that you guys were able to work it out and do whats best for both of you.
Cheer up! You guys have each other and that right there is a blessing! Everything will work out. 🙂
I am job searching and interviewing right now too, not knowing really what I want to do with my life. Breakdowns just feel so normal. Hang in there <3
Cheer up Buttercup!! Everything will work out just fine! It’s good to vent and get thing off of your chest! Eat some watermelon and relax 🙂
I’m so sorry your are going through all of this stress. someone one told me that “you can’t worry about ‘if’s’ ‘and’s’ or ‘buts’, but you need to focus on the present moment. that’s where you will find peace.” It was great advice so i hope you are able to find peace and hopefully figure out what is ultimately best for you and Ben!
Girl you are beautiful and will bounce back! Everything happens for a reason!
I hope things get less stressful for you, now that you have made the decision…..being an adult can be kind of crappy!
But Northern California is so beautiful! Best wishes!
I had many breakdowns lately. Most recently about 20 minutes ago.
I found your blog while looking for inspiration, as I am new to running. And I love it! It is so fun to read and just makes me happy. I am always interested in trying new things, so why don’t you pick me for this win?! Mental breakdowns? Yep, not quite on a daily basis, lol, but 3 kids, and that sums that up ! Oh and a husband…lol. 🙂
That sounds pretty stressful. After my boyfriend and I broke up I went for a long run and experienced my first sort of panic attack (i.e. I started hyperventilating… not being able to breath makes running hard). I think about all my issues when I run, and I think maybe that’s a good thing… you get it all out. And it’s hard not to stress eat! (or drink…) Good luck with everything!
Of all the places to have a breakdown, I’d say on a run is a good one! Hope you feel better now. 🙂
That’s a lot of stress to deal with, good luck with everything 🙂
Yummo! I would like to try some of that drink. Cheer up, Monica! Praying that it all works out for you guys 🙂
Ever since I started working, I’ve been stress eating and it’s so hard to control! On another note, I love giveaways!
going through a breakdown as we speak haha!
one that will probably last for another two weeks.
gotta keep the food awayyyy!
Anxiety attacks while in the middle of a run? Girl, this has happened to me so many times. It’s nothing to be shameful about, it’s life and it’s okay to feel that way when life feels out of your control. We really should hang sometime and go for a run together since we live so close…and then we can be there for each other when one of us starts hyperventilating and self-medicate with fro yo afterwards. Eh?
Just want to let you know im super GLAD youre not moving! let me know if i can ever do anything to help ya out. here for you, homie!
Hope things start looking up for you!
I have mini breakdowns quite frequently unfortunately. I try to be ‘superwoman’, and it isn’t possible. Usually I freak out on my hubby or spaz at my kids when I hit my breaking point. We’ve recently moved, and I still drive a half hour at least twice a week to workout with my friends. It is my sanity saver and stress reliever. I’m afraid I’d freak out more if I ahd to change every part of my life at once. Hang in there!
No breakdown lately, but a general crankiness. I do understand about the job/finances/space issue. We’re there except add two kids in elementary/preschool. Hopefully it works out well for both of us!
Sorry about your breakdown, but at least you didn’t give up on your run! You’re a way better person than me for that one.
Sometimes exercise is the best stress reliever and sometimes it just makes it so much worse. Sounds like you need a break! I hope everything works out 🙂
Two weeks ago I was in the middle of a lot of stress (no need for details) and had to sit down 8.8 miles into a 10 mile run and sob on the side of the trail for reasons that had nothing to do with running. So it’s not just you. Hope you are feeling better soon.
I would love to try those drinks!
Well wishes that your anxiety subsides! 😀
Big hugs to you!
I’m a teacher so stress is a part of life which is not good for a stress eater like me. Counting down till summer.
Aw, sorry to hear about the anxiety…at least running is a good and healthy outlet, right? Glad you’re staying in SoCal! 🙂
Breakdowns are just part of life aren’t they? ???
Wow! Those are huge decisions to consider. I can only imagine the stress that you were going through. Everyone has those “breakdown” moments and running really helps us get through it now doesn’t it? A slice of cheesecake or two doesn’t hurt either. ha ha Congrats on making a decision. I’m sure you are super happy that’s over!
Hang in there! Everybody has those moments.
Where do you buy the protein drinks?
Wow, that is stressful! Make sure you are taking time for you. I always feel less stressed when I take a walk, read, hang out with my dog, etc. I hope things look up soon!
Stress is a sh*tty and viscous cycle = less sleep, eating more, weight gain, moodiness…. The good news is that everyone experiences it, Monica you are not alone!
When my boyfriend of a year and I moved in together, I had the same thing, but they def felt like real panic attacks, and I would just burst out crying all the time. This was 2 years ago, and we are still very happily together, and talking about marriage, and its never happened again. I think stress just manifests itself in some crazy ways at times, and its even harder to deal with the response than usual, since your normal level-headednss is totally gone. Just thought I’d share with ya that I think it happens to us all in one way or another. Hope the stress can calm down, now that you two have made a decision 🙂
I am a middle school teacher so I know breakdowns well 🙂
Breakdown? You know it! I’m self-employed, so I totally freak out about finances all the time.
Isn’t it equally awesome and awful that running brings our feelings to the surface? I can hold it together until I go for a run, then it all comes out. Run out your feelings, girl! We all love you. 🙂
I have recently really enjoyed coconut milk and water more and more. This seems interesting to try.
On another note… moving is so incredibly hard! My husband and I have been thinking what it would be like for us to move somewhere else, but it is hard when you consider what we have here, the “known” if you will, versus what we might have somewhere else, “unknown.” But so goes life.
I hope everything calms down for you soon!
Currently I am working on two Masters, working 40 hours a week, and training for a half-marathon…I have get quite a bit of anxiety. Good luck with everything!! I think you are awesome and you have inspired me to keep running:)
I hope you can overcome some of this anxiety, I have struggled with it all of my life and do not wish the angst and turmoil that comes with it on anyone. Keep your head up girl!
I am glad you stress is gone!
I’m so sorry you’re so stressed out by all of this! We’ve moved over a half a dozen times and I know how stressful even just the idea of starting over somewhere new can seem 🙁 I also totally understand eating to control, stay strong! 🙂
I have breakdowns every month! NBD. There’s only so much you can hold in, you have to let it out sometime!
I love coconut flavored anything!
Sometimes we all need a good meltdown
Yum
I would love to win because I don’t get enough protein and I think I would love the drink. It looks yummy!! Please pick me!!
Hang in there Monica. We are in Southern California too and have had many talks about relocating for work, but we just can’t do it. We love it here!
Glad you guys are figuring it all out. I have not recently had a breakdown but I do know what you are going through!
Oh yes I had a breakdown on Monday when I got all kinds of letters and calls from 2 lenders because I moved out of my condo to escape alcoholic, angry boyfriend and thought we were 2 weeks away from closing on a short sale. My stress level is through the roof – but the very next day an offer came through! So maybe 2 months from now it can all be behind me and my semi-ruined credit will be the worst of it.
Glad you got your most pressing concerns worked out – although I understand how the whole no room for a kiddo thing still presents a problem.
Definitely want to try that Sambazon – haven’t seen that version in a store yet.
No breakdowns here currently…..its hard not to have anxiety about the big stuff. Glad you guys got most of it figured out…..all you gotta go is go along on the ride and see where the bug guy takes you. =]
My mom had really good luck with Armour thyroid replacement after many years on Synthroid. I guess she feels a lot better and it regulates both T3 and T4. Best of luck to you! 🙂
I’m so sorry you’re having a stressful time 🙁 I hate breakdowns, but don’t fret–we all get them. I just got a job and have had moving and all of its worries too (with who if anything, when, where, rent, buy, big, small, cave lol!) It’s worse when you feel like that and can’t eat a cupcake or some cashews in piece –give yourself a break every now and then 😉
Hope you’re doing better! Life can be stressful, try not to let it get you down!
I almost had a breakdown last night, when I thought that I couldn’t run the Pittsburgh Marathon last night, because of an aggravated SI joint. I went to the chiro thinking the worst, but it turns out that my pelvis is just a little misaligned, and he can fix me so I can run! Made my day.
I also might have a breakdown, because the Pittsburgh Penguins’ season might be donezo after tonight’s game…buuuut, that won’t happen ;).
Anxiety attacks are awful! Hope you feel better soon 🙂
Ugh, stress central! No good. I made a cross-country move recently and know how stressed I was beforehand. Also, uhhh I want to try choco coco h2oooo! 🙂
It’s weird how exercise makes me feel so much less stressed sometimes, but when I’m stressed it’s the last thing I feel like doing!
running is probably the best stress relief there is!
Aww…sorry you are so stressed! Hopefully now that you guys have made a decision you will feel a bit more settled and less stressed! Hugs! I am the opposite…can’t eat when I am stressed, but when I am happy…well, let’s just say I am fat & happy!
I know how you feel. I’m trying to change jobs and it is stressing me out. So of course I’ve been eating way too much!
Sounds stressful! Sometimes you just have to do what you can and acknowledge the optimal just won’t happen right now. Good luck
I am going through the same stress/anxiety and its making running no fun. Running is my outlet and by the time I get to run at the end of the day, its just to much sometimes. But woohoo for trying these protein drinks out!
I feel stressed when I think about my 5 year plan. My boyfriend and I are in college, graduating in one year and have plans to get married in like three years. It’s stressful to think of working all that out in the midst of graduating and finding jobs. Just gotta take things one step at a time, which right now for us is internships and saving any money we can for the future. Deep breaths are good. 🙂
Hmmm the flavor sounds interesting.
Anxiety sucks. I’m sorry!
OMG breakdowns! This was an especially tough week for a lot of people (I am a Hokie), but just think – you’re already on your way to overcoming it! Keep on trucking!
I’m such a worrier so I feel ya on the breakdowns. Glad you guys came to a decision though and now you can relax!
i love that stuff!!!! it is sooo good.
I think Breakdowns are in the air. I’ve broken down twice this week and several of my girlfriends have called me in tears this week, too.
Here’s to a better day/week/year!
I am sorry you are feeling stressed. I have a hypothyroid and I know the weight gain that goes with it is frustrating at times. I hope everything gets better for you.
My college operates on the block plan (students take one class at a time, for 3.5 weeks, then have a few days off and start again) and I pulled an all-nighter with my group for our project 2 nights ago. Still recovering! Also, I’m a senior, so I’m frustrated because I’m trying to process 1) why I still have to be doing that 2) the fact that next block is my last one ever 3) my housemates can’t enjoy our final block break because they still have to revise their theses and 4) I have to enter the real world soon and all I really want to do is sleep.
I have a job for this summer and the next 2 years, so at least I have some direction in my life and I’m surrounded by people I love, but I also feel quite anxiety-ed up right now. Hope your situation gets better and that you and Ben do what works for you!!
stress sucks! 🙂
Just keep telling yourself in the end, it always works out!
Ummm yes I’m thinking I’ll have a breakdown in the next week with all the crap I have going. That drink looks amazing and yummy!!!
Just found out we need a new roof and our water heater straight konked out on Sunday while we had houseguests (*gasp*)! I can understand the anxiety, m’dear. Keep your head up and keep runnin’!! Thanks for your posts and tweets! I am looking to try new protein bevs, so a freebie would be excellent!
I had a breakdown last night, I just took a new job and gave my 2 weeks yesterday… its a scary change but I hope I made the right decision in the long run
p.s. Wish you would have moved to NorCal! But I know how hard it is to be away from family 🙂
Good luck on your new gig!
My doctor is having some issues finding the root of some of my issues as well! I’ve been meaning to toy with some added protein to see how it fares, so that drink may be just what I need 🙂
I need to do the same cleaning up of my diet. I’ve been stress eating and not working out like I used to and have put 10lbs on since last year!
Don’t worry. Be happy 🙂 And, run for your life!!
feel better! my husband and I got married, moved, both started new jobs and built a house in the past year and a 1/2 so yes, I’ve had my fair share of meltdowns lately. But there is a light at the end I promise you. We’re through most of the stressful life changing stuff (at least for now) and are closer and more relaxed as a result, you guys will get there too.
My manager has been wildly irrational recently, and last night, at 9:30pm, I had a breakdown.pity party in my trailer (yes, I work in an office trailer because we are out of room in the main building).
*waves hand so enthusiastically it almost falls off*
Count me in for the breakdown. My has been a slow, progressive one over the past two weeks. I am finishing my graduate program and applying for jobs all over the country. There is one reason I would go back to Oregon (where I’m from) but it is based more on emotions than actual logical sense. Anxiety girl, hello!
I hope your anxiety lessens and you start to feel back in the rhythm again. Give yourself a break though–that was potentially a big ol’ life change that happened!
Big life decisions are always scary. I’m glad this one is behind you now. Thanks for the fun giveaway!
Yup, I have a lot of anxiety and I do a ton of stress eating. It stinks and I get mad at myself for eating so much crap, then I clean up my meals, etc… Stress, eat crap, eat better, then repeat. Ha! :/
I wish blogging paid (money, not free juice samples) based on quality because you’d be a stress-free millionaire!
I second that!
Ohhh, I am so on your team, lady! The hubs and I literally shuttle back and forth between the North Bay/Healdsburg area and the South Bay every week. It’s a hair pulling, stomach churning tangled up tug of war between jobs (his down south, mine in flux), house (up north, first time home buyers fall 2008, doh!), family (his up north, mine down south), sanity (who the hell knows where we stashed that). I’ve been riding out a wave (mmm, like, say, Mavericks?) of almost daily mini breakdowns while we try to figure this s*** out.
So, big hugs from a grateful stranger! I only discovered your blog a couple of months ago, but it has brightened each and every day since. Seriously. You inspire me AND crack me up! A colossal thank you!
AND if you ever DO become a NorCal girl, hit me up. I’ll tell you where to find all the best watermelon (hint: Andy’s, Sebastopol).
Please and Thank you!!! :0)
I have super anxiety over here – yoga is def a must to try to relax!
That drink looks yummy! : )
the hard part is over- it will look up from here.
ps- give me protein drinks 🙂
Mmmmm…the protein drink sounds amazing!
And I had my own freak-out today as well – it must be in the air…
Sending you lots of good vibes. I’ve been a reader for a while now too and laugh at every post. Take a big deep breath. Do some yoga and know that this too shall pass. Thanks for the giveaway! xo
Lindsey
Major life changes like that are super stressful!
Pick me! That drink looks amazing!
Dear RER,
Long time reader, first time comment. I am obssessed with your blog and fascinated by your personality. In fact, I am so in love with you, I just started reading your blog from the very beginning. It is like me just discovered the show LOST and decided to do a marathon. It is THAT GOOD!
Anyways, I am up to your August, 2009 posts, and back then, you had just moved to Maryland and I could sense you were not happy. Although I am still yet to find out what made you move back home, my gut tells me you were too far away from your family. And i can totally understand. I moved to U.S. from China by myself when I was 16, till this day I am still homesick, and I am 33 years old, happily married with one toddler. My plan for now is to wait until my son graduates from elementary school and move back, but that is still 10 years from now.
I guess what I am trying to say is that you’ve made a great choice by staying close to your family. Cherish every moment.
Love & lots of hugs,
Amy
I’ve tried the Samazon Acai smoothie and would love to try this one
Yummy! I want some! I’m sorry about your anxiety. Hopefully the eating healthy will use science and stuff to make you feel better.
I’m all about the struggles and you’ll get through it and I Hope things work out in a way that brings your life long happiness.
Also, that drink looks amazing and I really must have some for myself, so plz pick me, thx.
Thanks for your honesty. My issue is binge eating when I’m down. I love healthy foods and working out and then BAM, I ruin my hard work with a binge. I’m trying to get better by writing things down in that Fit Book you suggested. All the best with everything!
sign me upppp!
I would so be in the same place as you with the stress eating and the anxiety attacks. I’m glad that you don’t have to make such a big decision to move so far away. I could never do it.
I hope things start to come together for you, especially so you can get to the baby makin’. 🙂
sometimes it just helps to vent. i am one who lets things stir inside longer than they should – then the big outburst happens when i don’t want it to, and i end up taking it out on my family/boyfriend. it certainly helps to talk things through, and look at the huge network of support you have here JUST through your blog, not to mention your friends & family! you definitely have the right attitude to tackle this head on. keep your head up & keep smiling!! 😀
I would love to try this drink. I have been looking for them but can’t find them.
Although moving to a new area and starting over may seem scary, you should embrace the opportunity to begin this new part of your life! You will easily meet and make new friends, find fun local hangouts and lastly learn to love your new “home”! Hang in there and good luck 🙂 BTW, I am obsessed w/ almond milk so these little interesting drinks look amazing!
I’m glad you have the decision made – no matter which way you chose, you chose, which is the hardest part. (Once I know what I’m doing, regardless of what it is, I can focus on it and just go…)
And in writing that to you, combined with your answer to my half marathon question, I think I have my answer 😉 Thank you!
I’m glad you guys have finally made a decision! Picking up and moving is not an easy decision to make without worrying what if. I’m sure skinny runner is thrilled you’re staying put! I love reading about your crazy adventures!
Hi Monica – first time commenter…I really liked this post. It was so honest – it’s nice to feel like you can relate to your favorite bloggers 🙂
It is nice once those big decisions are made. I hope you both at peace with it now and can move ahead. Best of luck!!
I thought I would have a meltdown when my husband got injured and can’t work for a month (ie, he wont get paid for a month), but it’s worked out perfectly that he’s been able to stay home and we’re not eating beans and rice. Sometimes we worry about what may happen but you can’t control it, so just enjoy the ride ; )
I’m glad you two came to a decision together. I’m sure it was the right decision for you both at this time in your lives. You’ll figure things out when the time comes to do so. Good luck with getting yourself back on track!
boo stress! thinking about moving & jobs & stuff is no fun. thanks for the giveaway. the drink looks tasty!
I would love to try that drink!! Thank you for the giveaway!
I love this blog! Your transparancy is what I appreciate most. Thank you so much for sharing your anxieties… it really made me feel better about being a bit anxious myself today 🙂
Your in my prayes Monica! I will be getting married and moving to Kansas (yes, freakin Kansas) where my fiance is stationed in the army. I’m scared to death of tornadoes, of leaving my family and friends, and everything that goes with moving. All this has been heavy on my shoulders lately so I kind of know how you feel! But I know it will all work out for both of us 🙂
Ft Riley??? I loved my time in Manhattan. If you like water Tuttle Creek is a very nice area. It is beautiful there, esp in the spring when the ranchers burn the pastures (night time is the best). Embrace it and know that Kansas City is close and awesome.
Thanks for sharing Monica. I have been stress eating and not working out(my mother passed away 3mo ago) so I am still trying to find my way back to healthy eating and working out…Thanks for always making me laugh/smile at work…you are such a inspiration to me!!
I hear ya! I stress-eat for sure, too. The other day I was doing my taxes while simultaneously fighting with my husband and I headed straight for the leftover Easter candy. I will give myself SOME kudos, though, as I also had the urge to grab my running shoes and just get the eff outta there. If it hadn’t been too late to run in my hood, I might have. But sometimes all that solitary head time while running can just give you too much time to psych yourself out, too.
On the flip side, those drinks look like excellent post run fuel!
Umm Yum!! That sounds amazing!
Isn’t it crazy how anxiety attacks just pop-up like that? I love your blog and wish you the best of health. I don’t know if you’ve ever tried My Fitness Pal before. I joined (Free) last month and have already lost 7 pounds. It’s the only thing that has really worked for me and is totally fun. 🙂
Girl I feel your pain.
We moved to Houston over a year ago for work, and so I could receive “top notch” cancer care. We have a 4 yo daughter and moved 2000 miles away from home. Currently I am not a huge fan of life and have multiple breakdowns per day so have one when you need one!
I have thyroid issues (it’s gone thanks to cancer that moved on to other parts of my body) and I struggle daily with weight after losing 125#s and running. My moods are ALL over the place from the Synthroid and the lack of sleep, or fatigue or the move, or the 4 year old or whatever.
BUT we have jobs, we have a life that we are slowly building here and things do get better.
Email me if you need some thyroid information since I have been to the best of the best both at Mayo and now MD Anderson. I know it all too well it can be a real crapper.
Hang in there and know you inspire so many people.
Thanks for sharing Monica! It’s amazing how letting everything out, even in writing on the internet, can make us feel so much better. I deal with anxiety too, so I know how you feel. Currently I’m “questing” this year to seek peace and joy and to try and banish the anxiety from my life. Running plays a big part in that!
Just keep it up lady!
Ps… I’d love to try these drinks!
Yarp — sounds like you had a legit panic attack. It happens, even if you don’t have anxiety. I tend to get them when I exercise sometimes. I get anxiety-related ones too, but not often. Usually it happens when I over-worry. 🙂
Sorry to hear about your panic attack .. they suck! I had one when I fell behind my pace group on a 8 mile run .. at that time it was my farthest distance, so I was so freaked out that I would lose everybody and not complete my run! :/
I would love to win those drinks! I’m lactose intolerant and can’t do the whole chocolate milk thing. Chocolate almond milk is awesome though!
I have definitely had one of those breakdowns recently. Not during a run, though I did have to get off the elliptical in the last few weeks because I felt sick. I had a panic attack driving back from a friend’s house because of these things: (I’m pretty much an open book about these things, and all my friends have been hearing about this stuff for a while now.)
1. We’ve been trying for a baby for over a year and a half, everything is testing normal, and the hormone medicines made me a tiny bit crazier than my usual. Going to a fertility clinic on an almost weekly basis for the past 6+ months then having all that work NOT work is insanity-inducing, believe me. And I’m not even doing the most intense type of fertility!
2. After my marathon in November I lost my drive and enthusiasm for running and working out. I still do it, I still guilt myself if I don’t do it, but I’m in a funk. Working out is so “meh.” I’m training for a half marathon in Portland OR May 6, and after that I’m going to have to switch things up big time. Triathlon maybe? More biking? New gym? I dunno.
3. My job is boring me to tears and the organization is going through some big transitions in the next year that I can only hope is good for me and everyone around me.
4. We also had some house renovations that were stressful, but we’re past that now that we have a kitchen sink again!
Hopefully things are on the way up for you! Remember that a) it could always be worse and b) things will get better!!
We’ve been TTC for 3.5 yrs so lets just say I breakdown frequently :/ The only thing that keeps me sane is running and yoga =)
Just remember to breathe..
that drink sounds amazing!
i know your pain. i just moved for work and its definitely an adjustment
I’m a super anxious person so I can totally relate! That drink looks delicious!
also…i had an anxiety attack the other day…
while i was snorkeling in the ocean.
it was kinda akward 😉
i think the fish might be scared for life 🙂
I know how you feel about freaking out because of jobs and moving! I had a complete breakdown this past summer because I had gotten a job offer 3 hours away from my family. I kept thinking about everything I was going to miss out on. I ended up passing on the job and am sooo happy I did. I found a good job here and feel so good with my decision. Good luck!
Girl,
Having breakdowns is a part of life. I feel you sister, and I wish I could reach out to give you a hug. Take it easy on yourself. You are under a lot of pressue right now. You cannot be prfect, and constantly striving is only going to lead yourself to beat yourself up more. You are spunky, spirited, and stronger than you know.
Hey Monica.
Been a LONG time reader!! I’m obsessed with your blog! You really inspire me to eat healthy and work out!!! 😀 i also used to live in the irvine area..so when u go to certain places it makes me really home sick, but in a good way!! please keep up the great job, and continue to right funny, honest blog posts! hope one day i’ll be as good as u!! going to aspire to be like u!
<3 Always, Jess
That drink looks amazing!
I had a strange “anxiety attack” last night. I tossed & turned, felt like I couldn’t breathe, & kept worrying about a cat I couldn’t even picture. You’re not alone.
that drink looks amazing!
life is hard, for sure. i admire your honesty. keep that chin up!
this drink looks amazing!
life is hard, for sure. i admire your honesty. keep that chin up!
Yikes! Sounds very stressful! I’m glad you shared with your readers – I’m sure that helped you feel some relief… Even though we don’t know each other personally (is that creepy???).
So, like if I don’t win this giveaway, can you give me a hint as to where these can be purchased? I never seen this, and the combinations consists of EVERYTHING I love. I’m willing to spend my moohlah to try it.
I wouldnt want to move to Sonoma either! It’s pretty up there, but isolated.
I hope everything calms down soon, sounds like you’ve been dealing with a lot!
A comment. Any comment.
Hang in there, Monica! You clearly have a lot of stress right now, but it also looks like you are taking the right steps to clearing your mind. Sometimes making decisions can be the best relief possible. Just gets things off your mind to know they are done and dealt with.
Sorry you’re stressed out. On the bright side, at least the company isn’t across country- you’re still in sunny CA and not too far away from family! And the drink looks delish, btw.
Sorry to hear about stressful life decisions. Sometimes we never know what is the right way to go.
Thanks for sharing what’s going on in your life. It’s nice to hear that other people are struggling with similar issues. I think whatever is supposed to happen for you guys will happen and you’ll be fine! Change is scary, but new opportunities can be fun and exciting!
I’ve been going through crap lately too and while sometimes I want to pour my heart out on the blog, I am wary of sharing too much. Hang in there!
Hang in there sister 🙂
WOW! That’s a LOT of life changes and BIG, grown up decisions to have to make. 🙁 Sometimes, life choices suck. Hang in there! You’re doing great and hopefully like will calm down soon.
Life changes are hard. Hang in there and hopefully there is less stress on the horizon.
I have never heard of this drink! I’m going to check it out! Thanks for the info!
Hang in there kiddo. Stress is a killer. If only stress made me lose weight….that would be awesome!! Instead is sends me straight to the pantry!!
Hope everything works out for you! With the right support, you can get through anything (this I know all too well)
🙂
I can relate. When I moved to SoCal from IL, I decided to keep my house and rent it out. That went great for a year until my renter moved out and I could not get it rented again. So I sold it. It was a very stressful process, hagglings, dealing with it 1800+ miles away. It sold quickly and I thought I was ok. Then, that weekend, I went to a hot yoga class and balled my eye out through half the class. I laid there in the final resting pose of the practice with tears streaming down my cheeks. I think I held it in for so long, when I finally let me mind relax, all the emotions came out. I get it. You aren’t crazy…because if you’re crazy then that would make me crazy too! 😉
I love almond coconut milk so adding chocolate makes it even better!
Maybe some long hot baths at night to destress with traquility music.
There’s a lot of cr@p that the body releases when it’s done holding onto stress, so take yourself to the spa and have a relaxing massage! So glad things are working out for you and that you don’t have to pick up your life and worry about moving (but just for reference: I’m in NorCal and I’d love to keep you company going on runs and walks and consuming food!)
I’ve had a bunch of breakdowns so my doc gave me some pills to take when my stress gets really bad–the world can rest easy now, Heather is medicated! 😉 LOL
Sorry you’re going through so much stress, but it sounds like your getting things set! Im pretty sure that I have a breakdown weekly 🙂
you will definitely get through this! and the giveaway is great 🙂
Yeah absolutely! It’s been a hectic few weeks and sometimes I’ve needed to be alone, mentally zone out and go out with friends, or vent. I think we all have our breakdowns. Life can get SO crazy! Hang in there girl. You’ve got this.
On the bright side you aren’t moving, so you’ll be less stressed!
hoping things will balance out and calm down for you!
I totally understand your anxiety! I too am going through a transition period with my boyfriend – waiting to hear about med schools, switching jobs, maybe moving to another state…it’s hard to keep it together. Just take a deep breath and take it day by day. Things will settle soon and work themselves out 🙂 good luck!
The choice to move or not can be so difficult. It seems like Ben and you put a lot of thought in to your decission. Now take a deep breath and smile!
Absolutely! Yesterday I had a major breakdown! It’s also work related. I really need to figure out a way to relieve stress because it’s negatively affecting my health and hormone levels. So in an effort to not lose my mind, I’ve been focusing on what I’m grateful for. I’m grateful for my lover man dude, my parents, and this online community. Thanks for sharing your struggles too!
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It probably was an anxiety attack. I had one the other day in the middle of the run – my heart felt like it was leaping out of my chest, I felt like i was hyperventilating. But I have found that if I keep running, it’ll pass quicker then if I stop. I started running 4 years ago to combat the stress, anxiety attacks and daily migraines! The running has just about cured all of it so it is very distressing when runners get an attack mid-run. Hang in there!!
Thanks for sharin and keepin it real Monica:)
Great giveaway!
I have a different flavor in my fridge right now….would love to try this one!
pick me! I’ve been wanting to try those! And good luck with everything – those types of decisions are no fun 🙁
Hang in there Girl!
I am sorry to hear about your anxiety attack. I have had several of them in my lifetime and they truly can be overwhelming. I am glad to hear that everything in your life is getting back on track!
I’m sorry about the breakdown! I have them all the time. and I’m def a stress eater too. I have to remind myself to take deep breaths. It’s so simple but it really does work!!
So sorry you are going through that. We moved about 8 months ago from Arizona to Northern California. We spent months agonizing over the decision to move or not. I had a lot of runs like the one you described, and I also put on a few. Good luck, I really hope things start to feel settled for you.
Lots of stress around here too with my husband’s job. Running has helped alot but now I have to have foot surgery which will set me back a few weeks. Gonna definitely have to make some food changes too! Best of luck to you!
I am about to graduate college and have no job lined up and am not sure where I am going to live. That on top of the stress of finals has made me one breakdown-prone girl, so I do feel your pain. To make matters worse, I have been dealing with an injury, so I can’t run/do any cardio.
I hope your situation resolves itself and the anxiety levels drop quickly! And stress eating for me usually involves something really sugary…like jelly beans. Possibly a whole bag.
Emotional breakdowns are a part of my life at least once a month. I get overwhelmed and just need a breather. Maybe try taking a night off work and going out with a friend. Or spending the whole day with your family. Small things like these always make me feel better!
Wow-that’s a lot going on! I’m glad you are able to self reflect & take care of yourself! I always enjoy the honesty of your posts- & I’m making crock pot salsa chicken right now!
If you had moved though you would be closer to me!! I live in Santa Cruz, CA and it’s amazing here so if you’re ever thinking about living in this neck of the woods definitely consider it!!
I have in fact had a running breakdown! I’m glad you took the time and shortened it rather than powering through. When I’m stress running, I find myself paying less attention to the run and just going through the motions.. which leaves me more prone to tripping and falling (and instant injury of some sort). Best of luck with the move! Its scary, but sometimes a leap like that can be awesome.
breakdown? oh man…..college=breakdown every few weeks or so. not joking. i think its healthy to have a good cry every once in awhile too! also, i’m learning (as you are too) that when things are out of control and i don’t know what to do, to instead treat myself with a new magazine, cup of tea, or new songs on itunes. so much better than that chocolate brownie!
All that stress is awful. Take some time out for yourself.
I’m glad the decision is behind you and you’re moving onward and upward!
Hope things calm down for you soon.
My husband and I went through something similar 2 years ago – and we made the wrong decision. We are stuck in a city that’s not for us now and in the process I gained . . . 40lb! Not kidding. I slapped my behind and got it off and got it together but it’s miserable when you make the wrong decision. I eat something bad to make myself feel better and as soon as I eat it I beat myself up for it! What a fun cycle.
oh boy … me too with the anxiety. i really can’t imagine what it must be like to think about having to pack everything up and move away — but that’s not to say that i won’t have to do that when i graduate from grad school. it can be really scary to have to deal with all of those emotions that come up — at least for me there’s a lot of resentment, fear, etc that i just mull over. but, i honestly believe it’s important not to eat one’s feelings, and try to deal with the source of the stress rather than the symptoms, which i know is easier said than done.
I almost cried at work today. I need something free 🙂
Maybe try keeping a worry journal and scheduling time every day to worry and plan. All other times: write it in the journal for later.
I’m glad the stress has ended for you! I saved that same Anxiety Girl picture a while ago. <3
Any excuse to get more protein (especially when it comes with chocolate) is welcome for me.
Please take some time for yourself to destress.
aw, sorry to hear about your struggles. Chin up, girl! Part of the journey 🙂
I’m sorry you’re stressed. 🙁
I know you don’t count calories for many reasons. However, I used the calorie/exercise counter on the LiveStrong website to convince my doctor that my thyroid issues were making me gain weight.
Ahh, stress eating. Carbs and cookes are my go-to’s. I really cannot keep cookies in the house because I will eat them until I am sick. As for the carbs…well I need fuel for long runs right? So I just make sure I keep up the running, then I don’t feel so back about the carbs!
I am such a stress eater…I tend to go for goldfish and ice cream. I also have very bad anxiety and it sneaks up on me when I am sitting still watching tv or reading…I feel like I can’t breathe. This problem has actually gotten better since I started running more 🙂
Protein drink looks amazing!
I’m sorry that you’ve got so much stress lately. You are most certainly not alone.
I got so excited for a moment when I though you were moving or NoCal. I am kinda blog creeper and was having visions of getting to be your real life friend and having fun double dates with you and Ben! I would totally want you to be my personal trainer if you lived in the Bay Area!
I know what you mean about stress/anxiety eating, I have been doing the same thing for the past 6 months. I feel like my life if full of question marks right now, around marriage, kids, job etc. I have been eating the feeling away instead of dealing with them and deciding how I feel about them and talking to my handsome man about them. I am so scared of getting divorced someday and not being a good mom I talk myself out of it.
I am going to take inspiration from you though and focus on getting back on track with healthy eating and exercise. Perhaps being successful at that will launch me into know I can be successful at anything I put effort into.
Thanks for your honesty and humor, you always brighten my day!
I hope everything works out in the end for you!
Yes I had a breakdown the other day, they always seem to happen when your working out! I went home and ate half a package of Oreos. 🙁 you just gotta move on.
Think it’s safe to say that most people have had a breakdown of some kind. I understand what you’re going through, though! Good thing you’re a runner….it’s a great form of stress relief and meditation, I think:) You’re in my thoughts…
I think I have mini weekly breakdowns…my 2 year old is doing a lot of therapy due to some developmental delays and other possible issues and I think being in some sort of therapy 5 days a week just pushes me over the edge.
Good Luck with the new job!
I tend to eat for emotional reasons too, it is hard to keep it in check so I understand.
I hear you on the anxiety. My husband and I have been trying for over a year to conceive, ended up using fertility drugs and on our last try I got pregnant. Now I am freaking out!
My husband was laid off this past July and we decided to sell our house (ended in a short sale) and move to Dallas (from Spokane, WA). It was a huge leap of faith and so incredibly stressful. I gained 20 pounds. It’s awful to feel so out of control. And don’t worry about space for a baby: they’re small 🙂
Picking up and moving your entire life is a stressful situation, which I know you’ve been through before. Things will get better. Just stay positive, don’t beat yourself up over little things, and keep up the great communication you have with your hubby! 🙂
I’m a hormonal rage-aholic these days. Maybe I need chocolate protein shakes to make me feel better. 🙂
Not an entry for the giveaway, but I wanted to say:
For you and for everyone else who suffers from anxiety, at least you can know this: you aren’t alone! I hate being in the middle of a panic attack and feeling like I am the only one who has this problem. Of course, that doesn’t stop them from happening, but it usually makes me feel a bit better afterwards. I’m not crazy! Well, not in any kind of scary way at least 😉
I am so sorry you’re going through this rough time, but I know you can make it through 🙂
I am going through some stressful times right now too and have been turning to food (mostly to ignore my feelings.) Then when I workout the next morning I get so emotional! The exercise brings out all the feelings. So I can completely relate to you! Hang in there. I like to believe everything happens for a reason. 🙂
Sorry things have been so stressful lately, hope it gets better. I would love to try these!
I hope you feel better soon Monica! I think it is healthy to have a good cry every once in a while. How’d the rest of your run go?
Yup. I am kind of in a similar place right now, and the constant wondering, waiting, and weighing options are EXHAUSTING. That said, I am grateful to have options as much as they create conflict and panic attacks. Everything works out the way it is supposed to, I try to believe!
I’m a social worker and so am always on the verge of a good break down 🙂
Cheers to stability!
Coconut + Chocolate= L.O.V.E.
I’m glad that you have reached a decision. I think the not knowing is the most difficult part!
Hugs lady!! (although when I am having an anxiety attack the last thing I want is a hug, so maybe high five? haha)
I feel like I’ve been on the verge of a breakdown for months, sometimes it’s easier to let it all out and then move on. Sure you feel a little ridiculous crying and carying on, but it really does help!
The number one thing you can do for youself is FORGIVE yourself! It’s natural to have various reactions to stress, so don’t worry about it! Just wake up each morning and try to do YOUR best with what’s going on 🙂
Just know that you are not alone and this too shall pass. I try and think of things as challenges instead of problems. Sometimes it helps. The decision making process can be the hardest part, now that you and your husband have made a decision, I am sure things will get easier.
P.S. – That drink looks so yummy! If I don’t win, I think I will have to buy one to try it.
Yes you are under a lot of stress. Big decisions like that can drive you crazy especially when you are not really sure what is the best choice. In the end it all works itself out so try to relax a little!
Major life events like that are always stressful! Don’t feel bad about it. I’m the same way, too. If something is bothering me, I can’t stop thinking about it and function normally. Glad you guys made a decision though and now you can get back to being you!
That protein drink looks pretty dang good!
I hope things get better for you! Being stressed out is never a good thing! Oh and chocolate and almond? Count me in!
As someone who has been dealing with binge/purge cycle for 8-9 years I can relate. You’ll get through it.
Wow, I can’t believe how many people just commented to say, ‘Me me me I want a free drink.’ Sorry about that.
I can’t win the contest so my only motive in commenting is to empathize. My boyfriend and I have money problems and questions of where to live and medical problems and everything…the future doesn’t look great but we are living in the moment and hoping for the best. Best wishes to you and Ben!
P.S. I always think, even if I end up in a tiny apartment eating only rice every day that’ll have a bit of romance to it…
Just some words of encouragement! Anxiety blows a big one and I wish I could help.
Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need and thank him for all he has done. Philippians 4:6
Yeah, that sounds stressful 🙁 I also am stressing a bit on the baby-stuff. Husband and I have rather shitty commutes (34 miles for me, 40-something for him = 45-60 minutes each way) which is certainly NOT ideal for having children. I mean, people do it, but it’s been weighing on my mind for some time now. I don’t know what the answer is. Perhaps it is just that we “go with it” and if it’s unbearable, we’ll have to figure something out (i.e. move – which is tough with the house underwater, find different jobs, one person stays home, etc). Anyway, it’s too much to worry about right now and there isn’t even a baby in the picture at this point.
Sometimes you just need to breakdown and then you feel so much better! Just get that weight off of your shoulders 🙂
RER, I have never left a comment but I love you so much and hate that you’re major stressed! Just hope you know you’re an inspiration and such a cool chick.. And hopefully that helps! 😉 take care of yourself.
Lots going on here so I’m breaking down on a daily basis. Hang in there. I’m sure the decision to stay put near your family will help lift the burden from your shoulders.
I am SO SORRY that you had an anxiety attack and are super stressed! I just actually had my first full-on anxiety attack this weekend, and I think due to the hyperventilation my chest/lungs are still tight. Maybe it is the season for panic attacks!
I hope things are resolved soon and your stress levels go down! Take some “me” time for sure–it’s my favorite thing.
Sorry to hear about all the stress you’ve had lately! I’m a stress eater as well. I’d love to hear more about any positive coping strategies you come up with to avoid the kitchen 🙂
Glad you were able to get that tough decision out of the way. I am totally a stress eater too and have had my fair share of ups and downs on the scale because of it. I’m sure you’ll be back on track in no time 🙂
I have breakdowns all the time. In my case I think it comes with the territory of trying to race bikes competitively and excel at a university. I still haven’t found a way to keep them in check. Also, that drink looks delicious!
Everything will turn out okay. Just breathe. 🙂
ahh im sorry about the stress. moving is definitely stressful but whatever u guys decide-itll be an adventure!!
i had a breakdown (still kinda am) this weekend since i wasnt able to run boston…so bummed and still am 🙁
So hard to make big dicisions like MOVING but as long as you feel good about the choice you make don’t look back. I would love to try these drinks.
I’d love to try these!!!!
So sorry to hear it is all weighing on you, that is no fun. It must feel good to know a decision has been made though, I hope the pressure eases off soon.
I HATE that the answer to stress for me is food. I have tried and tried to figure out why and I just don’t get it. I have come to a place though where I can see it happening and be able to stop and make better choices. Last night was ROUGH for me, still not totally sure why yet but I was loosing my mind at a very quick rate. My mind instantly went to wanting to eat something bad, sit on the couch and have some wine. Luckily I stopped those thoughts, calmed down, and carried on with a healthy evening.
I hope you find your way back into your groove soon. When all else fails cuddle that little Vegas, it should help.
Please include me in the contest. Good luck on your 10 mile Big Sur race this weekend. I live near Monterey and may be out there supporting the crowd.
Anxiety is always hard, but things always have a way of working out. This drink sounds yummy!
That drink looks yummy 🙂
Life decisions are hard! I’m going through a similar situation, so I can relate (even with the stress eating!). I think you’re handling things just fine; a breakdown here and there is necessary sometimes 🙂
Stress eating is the worst. And constitutes most of my eating yesterday as I’m also contemplating major career changes, yikes!
And I LOVE Sambazon drinks. Haven’t tried this flavor before, but anything with chocolate is good with me!
(I’m in Canada so I can’t win the contest….but…)
Everything happens for a reason, stress and anxiety is part of the package. You will find a way to work through it in time. I have been in a similar position as you. My husband and I moved to a city 6 hrs away from our family and friends, his job didn’t work out, we lived in a tiny apartment and a seedy neighborhood and basically felt like our life was a failure – and I ate away my sorrows. One day, we were on the way home from visiting our families and said “Screw it, lets move” within a week we were lining up jobs and searching for a home in a much less-expensive city. We are closer to family and friends -and I have lost some of the excess weight – and are happily building a life here.
Good luck in your future Monica, everything always works out….there just may be some bumps on the road.
Take care and put down the loaf of bread. Eat a watermelon instead 😉
LOL…..I didn’t realize we couldn’t get the free stuff (I just said I didn’t want!) here in Canada!
No free stuff needed here just felt compelled to say that you’re bound to have made the right decision since you and your husband went over it all so thoroughly.
Breathe deeply….it’s all good 🙂
x
That sounds like a tough decision! I’m sorry for all your stress! Things always seem to work themselves out, so I hope they do soon!
totally understand and feel your stress and anxiety. even though we are dealing with completely different issues… i can relate. turning it over to God and praying… Praying for you too!
No breakdown, but close as I am potty training my last baby. I could use a protein drink right now.
I’ve had their acai drink and it was tasty, but that sounds amazing. I can totally relate with you on anxiety major life changes especially moving are scary. Good luck with everything!
Stress eater checking in! You’ll get back to yourself in a jiffy…you’ve done it before!
Where do you buy that yummy coconut water? In the off-chance I don’t win this fantastic contest.
Thanks Monica! 🙂
I cannot tell you how much I just related to this post. My hubbie and I are moving from Vermont to Ohio in 2 months. We got married in the fall. The combination of selling our house, settling into married life and moving to a place I have never been to before has caused me to gain about 10 pounds in 7 months. The working out is just the same… it’s the diet. I started Monday on the healthy eating train… so I’m with you! Ughhh, life is so stressful and why does FOOD have to be the stress “relief” (which just causes you to stress about gaining weight!)
I totally understand when you think your anxiety is getting to you but you’ve never really known if you ever had an anxiety attack. Its kinda scary and at times I think I am overracting…and..its just really weird. Last time I felt like that we were moving to our current house from a condo and we were homeless for a month. HUGE ANXIETY! My husband said I was just putting stress on myself but it felt different.
Anyways, at least you got 7 miles in! And I hope I can try that delish sounding coconut milk!
Omg, you had a lot of stress weighing on your shoulders. Stress always makes me eat more so i know how you feel. So glad you two have come to a decision and are staying put for now. That’s a great weight off your shoulders.
Lol, I love the distraction technigue. I want that drink! Where do you buy it? I have Trader Joe’s and Whole Foods near me do either of them sell it? It intrigues me.
Although today I tried something else that has intrugued me. I ate a tortilla made completely out of coconut. It wasn’t bad but it just wasn’t the same. I am Mexican so a tortilla has to be flour or corn or I will be ridiculed by my family and possibly shunned; I’m not sure. Plus beand and rice doen’t go well with coconut flavor. At least in my opinion.
Ok, I think I’m rambling now.
Hope you are having a happy Wednesday.
Oh btw, great job sticking it out on your run and not walking back home. Yay Monica!
I’m so sorry about all the stress!! Its a good thing that you have lots of people in your life who love you and support you! And a good run always helps too. 🙂 7 miles is awesome, no matter what’s on the schedule for today.
I’m sorry that you’re wigged out over everything but it’s understandable. That’s a lot of change and while change might be good (I’m still on the fence about that!) it definitely requires some time to process. I hope that you’re able to come to a healthy conclusion. In the interim, sending some virtual hugs your way in hopes that will help.
Lots going on, I hope things start to get clearer for you guys.
happy to hear about a delish coconut milk! i’ve tried a few, but haven’t been too thrilled! can’t wait to try this one!
i totally feel you on the worries and anxiety. i will be starting medical school in august, moving to a small town 5 hours away from home, sister, boyfriend, etc and living alone for the very first time. plus loans! eek! i keep telling myself that things will work out. hang in there!
That’s a legit reason for a panic/anxiety attack and stress eating! I’m glad you guys have it worked out and hope things settle back to as close to normal as you can get! Awesome on 7 miles though – I did 2 this morning……….. That drink sounds awesome!!!
deep breaths! you can do it! just one day at a time– i’ll be praying for peace in your stressful situation 🙂
Hope things get better! Somet days being a grownup and making life decisions just stinks! It will get better.
I’m always on the lookout for ways to get more protein in my diet!
7.miles is still a great run! I feel ya with stress being a full time student with a part time job and way too many extracurricular activities can really add up to a breakdown. Hope you feel better! Those drinks look delicious:)
Sorry you are having a rough time. Hope everything works out.
I love the Anxiety Girl picture. I can totally relate. Changes are hard, but it sounds like you made the right decision for now. And, I’ll have to agree that 7 miles is still 7. I would’ve stopped after the 2.5.
And that drink sounds amazing! I’d love to try it!
Those are serious life decisions. Packing up and moving away from everything you know is hard. I freak out over the smallest decisions so I can’t imagine how hard this must be!
Now that a decision has been made, hopefully it can add a little peace and stability to your life =) =)
While I would have loved to see you in Northern CA, being by your family is so important. My husband’s family is from socal and it is hard to make it down there to visit, even though it’s only a hour flight away.
Now that the stress is over, you will probably feel a lot better!
yum that looks delicious!! i want to win it!
Dude, change is hard. Life is hard. Bravo for pushing through a few more miles! I probably would have laid on the concrete and cried until a stranger gave me a ride home.
Thanks for sharing your Sambazon!
Ohhh I feel your pain girl!! Keep breathing, and enjoy life 🙂
And for the giveaway, I’d love to try it. YUMM!
We’re right in the middle of a very similar situation so i definitely feel ya, Monica. Glad you have some sort of resolution 🙂
I am sorry for all your anxiety – hopefully it will pass now that you have a firm decision/plan and can go from there! I just started following your blog and totally love it – it is making me even more motivated to run and it is always great for a laugh!
hope you get some peace about everything!
oh i forgot – runner_girl5k at yahoo dot com
Oh, no! I hope everything gets better with your stress, and remember that everything will work out in the end!
hate to hear about all of that but, at least some of the weight is lifted off knowing that you won’t have to deal with moving away.Everything happens for a reason, even when it seems to suck! But on the flip side, that drink sounds deelish 🙂
So sorry to hear about all of your stress! Just know that everything happens for a reason and while it’s not fun now, it’ll work out for the best! I definitely had one of those runs a few months ago. I started crying while running up a bridge (already painful enough)!
PS. That drink sounds amazing – i love chocolate coconut milk, and almond milk, so combining the two sound delish! Go
i totally understand what you are going through!!! hope everythign works out!!
I really hope everything works out, that must be so stressful!
My husband and I are in the (very stressful) process of buying a house right now. I pretty much bave a breakdown every day. And the fro yo place by my house just added a cookie dough topping. So I’ve been doing my share of stress eating!!
I just keep telling myself that it will all work out in the end. In one year, I won’t even remember why I was so stressed!
I love anything coconut-y, I would love to win this!
Big decisions are always tough and so is stress. I used to use food but now I use running and can tell a definite difference!
Virtual hugs! I feel ya’ on the stress eating- I am in college, and much like crazy on less-than-healthy foods whenever something bug comes up!
Those big life decisions are the hardest! Nothing stresses me out/gives me anxiety more! Keep your head up. Whatever path y’all end up on is the one you are supposed to be on.
oh man! Thanks for sharing! We’re in the same boat right now – I’m giving our family 3 weeks in Boulder to decide if we want to move! Family is here, but we love Colorado. gah!
Praying for you!!
You couldn’t move that far away from Disneyland!!!! ;). Sorry – we are currently planning a trip there this fall so I have Mickey on the brain…. Glad you have your decision behind you!
Thanks for your honesty…it’s appreciated.
do you prefer homemade protein green smoothie or store bought protein drinks?
Grown up decisions like where to live, when to have kids, and where the money is coming from do cause so much anxiety. Why did I want so badly to be older when I was a teenager?
I hope this works out for you guys! Everything happens for a reason.
It’s nice to know someone else is on the verge of major life changes!!!
My husband and I are 500 miles away from HOME. And we are in the midst of deciding what’s next. A new bigger child-friendly house here where we have steady jobs and a few friends or take a leap and move closer to home and start over again. I have been stressed out lately and its manifesting in gross pimples and extra pudge around the middle. Not cool. I am also working on my Intuitive Eating and a diet seems like the opposite of what I need right now. I’m struggling, my “food police” are being very bossy!
How do you manage to eat “intuitively” without being screamed at by your inner-food police?
I love your speedy giveaways! Almost as much as I love anxiety girl.
oh no! i know how stressful it can be to move. But changes are good – they challenge us, yes, but more importantly, they teach us that changes can be whatever we make of them! good luck with everything 🙂
7 miles is still great! That’s a major accomplishment for a lot of people 🙂 Once you give yourself a breather, things often take a different perspective. Hopefully this will happen for you soon. And thanks for the delicious giveaway!
Big decisions like that are never easy. When it all boils down, love and health is all you need and it sounds like you’ve got a lot of both 🙂 Hope things get easier!
Life changes are certainly rough. Glad you guys figured it out!
I used to have attacks like that but now I take meds….they help….kind of. (I love the anxiety girl cartoon, fits me perfectly!) It sucks when there is so much going on like that and anxiety is an ugly friend. Hang in there!
While the stress sounds awful, the drink sounds amazing. I’m glad you guys found a solution and hopefully it will mean less stress for you both.
My husband has had job issues the last few months- I know what you mean! It’s also changed how we’re looking at the future and living day to day. I’m thankful that he still has a job, but still, the stress… I’ve been drastically reduced my sugar the last three days and have already lost a pound- a testament to how much I really lean on food. Good luck!
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I had a panic attack in class yesterday. Finals are sneaking up on me, and it was just too much to handle. Everything hit me at once; so yeah, I totally know how you feel. Sorry about the run. At least you got 7 miles in! That’s awesome.
Ugh. I know all about anxiety and stress and how it can affect the way we care for ourselves. I’ve been going through some friend drama recently and while I should have been motivated to exercise and burn some of that frustration, I was more interested in sitting at home and eating things I shouldn’t. I made myself go workout a few times, but my food choices have suffered anyway. Time to get back on track.
That protein drink sounds amazing. 🙂
Decisions are hard! Running definitely helps me relieve stress too… It actually does a lot of good things :). But anyways, those drinks look very interesting! I would be pleased to win :-D.