Before my run this morning I wasn’t really hungry, but thought I should at least eat some toast with PB. I usually don’t eat before a short run so my body isn’t that used to it.
My run today was supposed to be 19 miles. It was super cold which is good running weather, especially for a long run! I was actually sore from yoga yesterday. I need to go more often so I get different muscles in shape. I did go to the Level1-2 class and I’m just starting so that may be why I was sore too. Anyways, my leg muscles and my back were a little sore.
I had a solid first 12 miles even though my body felt a little tired (?) the whole time. And then it got bad. I don’t know what it is, if it’s psychological or physical, but I just felt like I couldn’t do it all. Like I was telling myself, “I think I can’t, I think I can’t…” Once I get to that place – on a long run, by myself, getting overwhelmed – it’s hard to get positive. Around mile 14 I started running with walking breaks thrown in. As I kept going the walk breaks got longer. I was getting more and more frustrated and disappointed in myself.
It sucks because running 14 miles is awesome. I should be proud of that alone. Plus I did complete a whole 19 miles, just not running the whole time. But, I was so frustrated with myself I just wanted to quit. I started thinking about how I was not having fun. I love running. I do, seriously. I look forward to long runs, I smile when I run after I take an extra day off. I am weird. But these super long runs for the full mary have taken a psychological toll on me. It just doesn’t seem like fun right now.
I am commited to completing this race. My goal is to finish, so I shouldn’t care if I walk. I want to enjoy the experience and be proud of myself no matter what. I am just venting because I had a bad run today. Thanks for listening reading.
Bobbi – thanks 🙂
Lindsay – it’s just natural creamy PB from TJ’s. I don’t refridgerate it so it’s a little runny.
Stephanie – thanks, I can’t imagine how much harder you are training for Boston! But, I’m glad other people “get” me. Good luck with Boston!
I saw your site from other blogs I read and can completely sympathize. Currently I am training for Boston and although I love to run, it always takes a toll on me when it gets to the LOONG ones. Its TOUGH. But do not be discouraged with a tough training run. Once it gets to race day, regardless of how you feel, your pride will keep you running and you will finish.
ooo what kind of pb is that? it looks different 🙂
us runners know what you mean;)